once in a purple moon

2011-07-03T21:23:00.001+08:00

the day after tomorrow
my life will never be the same anymore
finally its coming
i'm scared

2011-06-30T18:09:00.002+08:00

The horror is
you know one day you have to deal with it
you know it can't turn good
you know you have to face it
you know you are waiting for it to come
you know you can't do anything to change it
It is not the end of the world
but you feel no better
your world is collapsing
you fear what is coming ahead
you wonder tell or not tell
you find no shoulders to cry on
you hide
you lie
you see no one
you know you can't do that all your life
shield,mask,glove
anything you could use to protect your own
where is the ending
when is the ending
it is endless unless you .

星座*个性

2011-05-21T01:13:00.003+08:00

一直以来
自以为与众不同
总是和凡夫俗子划清界限
不屑盲目跟随世俗趋势
不屑与平凡拉扯上一点点关系
也从来没有在意过星座上的契合与否

当星座成为话题时
许许多多的小事
就像回形针遇上磁铁般
一个个接起来了
怎么从来没有想过
或许是因为星座呢

才发现
生命中占了自己情绪上最极端部分的人
都是属于双子座的人
是巧合吗

最难忘的最喜欢的最念念不忘的最欣赏的最羡慕的最开心的
最爱的

最讨厌的最烦恼的最咬牙切齿的最生气的最无奈的
最伤心的

天蝎座和双子座在交叉点上擦出的火花
到底是好是坏
眼前看见的
似乎都是被双子牵制的天蝎逃不开枷锁的情景
是宿命吗
逃不开了吗
该认命吗
放下了吗
坚持值得吗

***

极端
是我的标签

我承认
我是一个容易被激怒的人
也是一个把心情挂在脸上的人

我溺爱我疼惜的
也不保留的痛恨我不屑的
可以悉心呵护
也可以不留情面

经过岁月的洗礼
坏习惯收敛了不少
但该坚持的还是不会妥协
不想做的不想说的
还是会保持沉默
不喜欢的不情愿的
还是会藏不住
不经意地流露出讯息

也许不讨人喜欢
也许会树立敌人
可是人嘛
总是不完美的
你说对吗？

~.~

2011-03-26T08:05:00.000+08:00

Learn to love myself more

2011-02-21T23:05:00.001+08:00

After watching 127 hours
all i can say is
---------> what the hell
not that it sucks
it is because
it gave me a bad feeling that i couldn't explain

therefore
i will only watch comedy
from now on

@.@

2011-02-15T21:01:00.001+08:00

不是不想拥有
只是不甘于平凡
也因此得到寂寞

2011-01-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

i am just a little girl~

2011-01-13T19:38:00.001+08:00

向下降
向下沉
怎么都潇洒不起来了

2010-12-06T21:52:00.002+08:00

just a little bit of faith
i guess
probably a little bit of luck
or
a little bit of guts
there you are
so near yet so far
are we losing it soon
let's see
let's wait
let's move on

2010-11-13T10:35:00.000+08:00

我犹豫了

2010-10-28T21:44:00.002+08:00

最不想面对的事情出现了
怎么办？
可以继续装傻下去吗？
是时候逃离所有人
在无人岛上徘徊了

2010-09-15T18:46:00.001+08:00

Babe where are you?

2010-09-08T02:05:00.002+08:00

BITCH! YOU THINK YOU ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME AND YOU BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY! YES I HAVE MADE A RIGHT CHOICE FOR FORGOING THIS OFFER! THANKS TO THE USELESS AND STUPIDEST HR IN THE WORLD FOR NOT DOING HER JOB SO THAT I CAN GET AWAY FROM BOTH OF YOU AS FAR AS POSSIBLE! LIVE IN YOUR LITTLE OWN WORLD FOREVER! BITCHES!

2010-08-21T18:04:00.001+08:00

What am I doing? :(

2010-08-12T13:06:00.002+08:00

回忆往事
才发现许多东西
犹如冥冥中命运的安排
真的是命运吗？
或许这一次
我将会知道答案
如果这一次
我期待的再与我擦身而过
如果这一次
我想得到的再从我手中溜走
我只好认命了

2010-08-08T15:47:00.003+08:00

Love Carrie Underwood

her songs touch my heart

the stories in the lyrics

the emotion

yes she sings so well

2010-08-03T09:32:00.002+08:00

why you always want to be so cruel to me?
why you always make my life so miserable?
why you always hate me so much?
don't you remember?
we are sisters
i don't want to say this to you but really, karma does exist

2010-07-28T16:10:00.001+08:00

如果。。如果。。。

上天能将某些人变消失掉

从我生命中消失

那就好了

2010-07-16T18:08:00.001+08:00

finally settled down in bukit batok
get over the past
starting to look forward
hope everything goes well

2010-07-03T18:30:00.001+08:00

currently in job searching mode...man it's so difficult to get a job

LOREAL LOREAL I WANT U!!! PLSSSS TAKE ME

2010-05-12T22:35:00.003+08:00

i feel very "don't like" everytime i hear ur comment about me from other person...then i will always console myself...that you don't know me at all...hmm...am i lying to myself just to make me feel better?

oh by the way...i think when u comment about others in front of me..those comments are not so nice also....so i think...well you just think you yourself are the best afterall...

2010-05-10T17:47:00.001+08:00

Last thing to do in ntu ---> fyp presentation!!!!! ah ah ah fast fast over...can't wait d...

2010-05-02T13:10:00.002+08:00

yes, i often get scared when people push me too hard...i try to lie, ignore the calls, turn off my phone, and all the negative feelings overwhelm...i know i'm being stupid, childish and fool...i just couldn't help but avoid...haih forgive me...omitofo

2010-04-27T23:26:00.001+08:00

Yes, two down! Last subject will be on 5th may, and fyp presentation on 11th may...After that I will be FREEEEEEEE~~~~~

2010-04-25T13:22:00.002+08:00

yesterday i was studying like "oh man, i have wasted a lot of time, the 2nd paper is just two days away, i need to buck up and study hard..." but then today i woke up, i noticed that i still have another two days...hahaha stupid me...got the date wrongly and scare myself up...so now i'm slacking AGAIN hahahahhahahaha

2010-04-22T10:40:00.001+08:00

i feel stress suddenly...but i want to countdown...the 3rd last paper in last sem of my uni life -> Therapeutic Engineering...Go to hell MARY CHAN...u r one of the worst lecturer in BIE...

2010-04-19T15:14:00.000+08:00

原来是我不够认真，不够努力。。。

2010-04-17T21:20:00.003+08:00

I HATE IT WHEN U ASK ME THE SAME QUESTION AGAIN AND AGAIN EVERYTIME I TALK TO U! DON'T U KNOW THAT EVERYTIME OUR CONVERSATION END AFTER U ASK ME THIS KIND OF BULLSHIT QUESTION? CAN U PLEASE DON'T BE SO CURIOUS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S RELATIONSHIP STATUS? DON'T ASK ME EVEN IF U CANNOT RESTRAIN UR CURIOSITY!

2010-04-17T15:02:00.003+08:00

Looking at the facebook updates about my friends, suddenly realize that I'm going to graduate in less than one month, yet i have no feeling at all. Without any sadness, i just wish to get over the exam, the fyp presentation as soon as possible. Neither do i feel excited too, as i can see the coming job hunting period will be tough. I can't help wondering, what will i be in the future?

UpD@t3

2010-04-12T23:50:00.006+08:00

Here I am, typing blog in the dark, sitting uncomfortably on my sister's bed, accompanying coco who is sleeping on the floor, enjoying few more precious hours at home before heading back to the place i hate...Right now, I just want to record things that happen around me recently.

Ok let's start with coco. Whoa, she was shaved to botak! It feel so weird when i see her because she looks totally different. The body is so skinny, the eyes are so big and round, the overall appearance make me feel like she is another male chiwawa, but not our poodle coco. Luckily she is not ugly with the botak image. I like her new bald look anyway, it gives me fresh and clean feeling...at least i don't feel so damn hot when she is lying beside me lol

Well, Coco is getting older and smarter now. So there is less and less chance for her to be locked in the little cage. And she enjoy all kinds of fruits everyday. My parents are so so so dote on her that they purposely buy watermelon, water chestnut, papaya, mango, and apple for her. Plus, she can enjoy aircon in the room with us at night. But one bad thing is that sometimes she wakes up at midnight and acts hyperactively, try every alternative to wake me up. Same thing happen in the next morning when everyone in the house is preparing to work. She is more effective than any alarm clock, with all these kissing and licking =.=ll

Bought a new black frame specs for myself :D Went for teeth treatment and found out that my teeth condition is not so good as i think ops O.O Date lee mei yee and she fong fei kei again, as expected zzzzz

The electricity saman is not arrived yet, which means we have to bear the hot weather for an unknown period. Man it is just so torturing, i can't concentrate on report and assignment at all. I knew the importance of aircon very long time ago, but i never realize that my house can be so freaking hot without aircon T_T Saman Saman please come as earlier as possible to terminate this stupid punishment.

I heard the glass shattered sound when yyan text me. Her coursemate miss linzhiting cannot apply hall for the coming academic year. Ahhh the perfect plan for me to save money + stay with lyy + wait for baobao suddenly become impossible. SHIT! I was so worry. I have no way to contact people because the devil sis took the internet cable off to her bf house.

Many thoughts running through my mind that i could not sleep well for that night - I don't want to stay with people that i'm not close with, I don't know if there is still any vacancy left, I have rejected so many offers before, now i have to beg people to accept me again, how how how how how?!

At this kind of situation, you will realize the importance of having friends :D THANK YOU HONG PEI JUN AND LOI PHOOI MUN FOR YOUR KIND OFFER. And phooi mun, i owe u this - YOU ARE AN ANGEL~ hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

2010-03-21T19:52:00.001+08:00

Looking for a target
So that i can live better
Smile broader
Stay happier
Let's cheer for life!

2010-03-11T20:42:00.003+08:00

Just randomly and suddenly craving for it. However it turns things down when u get what u do not expected, while u were imagining how happy u feel when u get what u want. Hmm...down down dei...

2010-03-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

Being quite anti-social these few months. Trust me, it has absolutely nothing to do with my personality. The truth is --> frugality is a virtue. Sounds ridiculous? To some people, they would probably define it as stingy or something else. Well, i don't know where is the line that distinguishing these two words, but somehow you have no choice but to practice thrift. I understand that I haven't really reached such a critical situation. However, it is kind of like the saying "in fair weather, prepare for foul". You might not have any idea about the worries in my mind. So, forgive me if i say no to your invitation. =)

胡思乱想-ing

2010-02-25T10:41:00.000+08:00

what i want what i want what i want
what am i doing what am i doing what am i doing

2010-02-07T22:18:00.001+08:00

DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN

GIVE ME TRYPTOPHAN!!!!!!!

Happening Weekend

2010-01-31T20:54:00.007+08:00

I began to like jb after the visit to pingping house over there ^^ The food was nice, the feeling was great, and her parents are always so friendly and cute when they speak mandarin. No doubt JB is a good place for them to learn this language XD

It is so nice to have a car~ I have this strong feeling ever since i stepped into this evil country named Singapore. This is pingping's second visit to Singapore after her primary graduation trip. Not so fun though, as traveling by bus and mrt is just so damn tiring.

It was sad to hear that she is going to Australia soon. If our evil government really extend the compulsory service to 10 years, she is going to stay there forever. Wake up Malaysia! And please government, stop doing all these stupid things anymore!

2010-01-21T14:43:00.002+08:00

曾经多么希望自己能快点长大
现在却到了那个不想再长大的年龄
矛盾地活在这个世界
寻找着属于自己的天地

可以拥有一个简单容易的人生吗？
不需要有挑战
不需要有挫折
不会力不从心
不会失败

不奢望轰轰烈烈戏剧化的故事
只要有快乐平淡
就够了

只是说说而已
不能否认
看得越多
期待的越多
想得到的越多

人啊
总是贪心的

当什么都没有的时候
就希望有那么一点点
当有了一点的时候
就期待再多的一点点
就这样
到最后还不是什么都没得到

懂得了这个道理
却还是没办法从中走出来
能不无奈吗

i miss u

2010-01-11T20:49:00.002+08:00

i miss coco so much...she loves to stick with me always...she loves to sneak into my room and wake me up every morning...she loves to follow everywhere i go...she loves to lie around people's foot and sleep...she loves to lick people...she is so naughty...

2010-01-08T08:51:00.002+08:00

Why on earth u never change after so many years? All these years i've been tolerating, and u keep making it worse and worse and worse. The hatred feeling never fade. U are the most evil people in the world. I hate u!

2009-12-22T20:56:00.002+08:00

It is so happy to see the new member in my house...yeah its name is coco...a poodle XD

DoWn

2009-12-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

Now here I am, in my neighbour's room, using my neighbour's lappy *long long sigh*

I'm so not used to it...without the company of miss curly and mr. big screen...yes the stupid desktop breakdown after the exam...everything has become so inconvenient...i got nothing to do when i stay in room...NOTHING, NOTHING AT ALL

No music, no drama, no fyp interim report, no facebook, no msn. See? Computer is just soooo important for me because it is the only entertainment in NTU. Everything is connect directly and indirectly to computer and internet. I did hang out with friends, went sing k, went shopping...but at the time i step into the little room this empty feeling spring in...i cannot bomb the music loudly in room (this is what i always do when miss curly is not around), i have no books at hand to read before i sleep (another thing i always do at home), i have no one to talk to...oh man...this is just too torturing...

Luckily miss neighbour is still in ntu preparing for her last paper...i wonder how am i gonna continue the boring life in ntu for the rest of the week before i depart for my bangkok trip *sob sob*

Somebody please save me...

2009-12-01T01:54:00.000+08:00

exam is over ^^

My birthday ^^

2009-11-10T16:25:00.010+08:00

Had a great shopping day with lyy and got my first birthday present on Thursday. No doubt lyy is a very good companion because whenever i hang out with her, i know that it is worth everything! Relaxing, exciting, fun and happy -- that's what i can describe, i enjoy every moment that i spend with her ^^

Well, the next one is my lunch date with seniors in sakae sushi. I had no idea that my boss doesn't like sushi at all, so i feel quite paiseh for choosing sushi restaurant. And i think the bill is quite expensive, but anyhow, thank you heng aik very much for the big treat ^^

Then the random supper with peijun, jingsian and ziheng. These people are also my favourite chit-chatting partners. Life can never be boring as long as they are around ^^

Birthday's eve -- the day we fulfilled our dreams haha :D I had a great time with lyy at the safra mall near jurong point. It was sooooo fun and we even think there's no enough time for us to sing all the songs! Ops...have to praise lyy again, though i very reluctant to say it out lol...Yah, my ntu life become so colorful ever since i knew you, i appreciate it very much to have you as my roomie hehe ^^

Ahh...not finished yet! After the k session, we went for ice cream! My favourite haagen daaz!! I have to say, it really made my day!!! :D :D :D The k session was happy enough, but then this random ice cream session made a perfectly ending for the celebration ^^

Later on, the dinner time. Honestly i was not looking forward to the dinner date, due to many reasons. However, the restaurant was quite nice, both food and ambience are perfect. Highly recommended for couple who wish to celebrate their days in a romantic environment. I'm not alcohol-addicted, but i think it would be a plus if wine was served that night ^^

Midnight, at 12am, the lights off! As usual, the birthday song, then blow water time. However the atmosphere seemed awkward. Anyway, I'm glad that they came, thanks to wq, pt, pj, js, zh ^^

And also baobao and weishin's call, sms, msn, facebook wishes from everyone...thank you thank you! ^^

The actual day. Many wishes from people, thank you everyone. A very sweet birthday card from my lovely coursemate rike, not to forget miss yiling's early present on friday because she thought my birthday is on 6th ^^

Dinner with my buddies wai mun and chow chow. Was planning to go swensens for ice cream, but the overwhelming of ice creams and holland village really shoot up my unwillingness to visit there anymore. I suggest going for bali thai in IMM. Hmm wai mun doesn't like spicy food, but since it is my birthday he doesn't mind to go for me, and I also didn't have any paiseh feeling towards him...so i made the decision to go there :D Yah it is so good to have these old friends with me, i don't have to feel stressed up for making any decisions ^^

Felt so sorry to Qi ting because he called me for at least five times but i didn't picked up the phone. And I felt so regret after rejecting his offer for sending me a gift from uk hahaha...aiyaya...anyway i was glad that he called ^^

Received a very surprise present from phooi mun and pei jun. Miss phooi mun was really busy for her fyp presentation and CA, so i wasn't expected to get anything from her. I was so happy that she still make it for me after her busy schedule, really appreciate these two pretty girls for giving me a big big cute surprise gift ^^

Not to forget miss yingyan's 11.59pm surprise. I know she really want to give me a very last memorable surprise because it would be my last birthday celebration in NTU hostel. Thank you very much ^^

The post-birthday celebration at bakerzin with two ladies hui teng and carmen. I thought it is only a casual dinner, the cake was quite unexpected lol. Miss hui teng kept saying that she was craving for a dessert or a cake, i had no idea what she wanted. Then there was a surprise piece of birthday cake for me, at the time I only realized that she was acting before that...hahaha thank you girls for the treat ^^

This is not related to birthday, but it actually fulfilled my wish to have a trip with my highschool girl gang. Air asia promotion tonight and i finally managed to book cheap tickets for bali trip! YAY! Hope we really can make it, i'm really looking forward to traveling with you girls. Not to mention my australia trip with the fun NTU gang, wah sounds like i'm so rich, two graduation trips next year hehe ^^

Miss yvonne said she doesn't mind to treat me ice cream or dinner i don't remember which one, but i'm meeting her tonight! I'm so happy getting to know lyy, yvonne and weishin last year, they brighten up my NTU study life. Thank you very much ^^

-The end-

2009-11-07T22:25:00.001+08:00

looking forward to the k session with the cutie and the ice cream date with wai mun...heeeee :D

2009-11-01T20:55:00.002+08:00

i had a bad dream today...it was so real...u are digging a hole...tempting me and waiting for me to jump into it...at the end of the day it's up to my choice...do u have any idea how cruel it is....for me

2009-10-29T20:20:00.002+08:00

yes u!! why u want to put me into such situation??!!! I wish to...but i don't want to be a bad girl T_T

Why got ppl write this kind of funny song?

2009-10-24T23:54:00.003+08:00

女：你控訴我　接吻接上癮
密密外遇　令你很痛恨
你呷醋呷上癮　膽敢去諷刺我　不愧是女人
男：平時和人　如何尋開心
　　捏著浴巾　去擁抱別人
苦苦的啞忍　離開妳
合：沒要緊

女：你作個證據　再對我教訓
男：和他搞公司　是你蝦我笨
女：我放棄奮鬥　你至安心
男：跟他幾點鐘　方有著快感
女：堂堂男人　別太過份
男：如何纏他　我當顧問
女：何必於一起　沒半點信任
男：三天不見了　談何被信任

＊女：睡就睡　男：妳作對
　女：你喝醉　男：請不必屈我喝醉
　女：梳化都給你割碎　男：全都因妳衰＊
＃女：睡就睡　男：妳說對
　女：你撤退　男：跟他好一對愛侶　我走開妳沒負累
　女：請你滾　滾出去
　男：妳愛滾　不配做人　爬出去
　合：鬼上身　趕不退
　男：我有信心　不怕行雷
　合：看心虛會是誰
　女：你去　　男：認罪
　合：然後看死你落淚\＃

　女：從未了解你　　　男：我偏太縱寵妳
　女：我也太縱你　　　男：妳當我已死
　女：別日夜在妒忌　　男：假得妳
　女：我也有吻過你　　男：是為著好奇
　合：天都知　你與我　誰人有理
　男：天天想妳　　　　女：才叫你妒忌
　男：彼此躲避　　　　女：自卑的你　日嘈夜嘈　調情亦無味
　男：終於嘲笑我　我愛妳不起

REPEAT＊＃

男：和人愛吧抱吧吻吧叫吧去吧舞吧　還是算吧
女：酸吧苦吧哭吧飲吧湯吧癲吧　別要醒吧
男：早已輸了不怕不怕不怕不怕
　　隨便對他笑我如何小家　
合：咒吧
女：你不化　男：憎妳　憎我　惹起對罵
女：講真　因你極小家
合：你使我羞家　羞家　真羞家

REPEAT＃

女：再見　男：不見
合：誰又有空再受罪
女：再見　男：分居

合：無謂吻傷我味蕾

nice song --> 我的回忆不是我的

2009-10-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

傷心的總會任性
灰心的總會用氣力
將最好的過去將最多的細碎
鎖到屬於你的眼睛

失戀的不夠耐性
失戀的不信是注定
於最黑的世界於最光的剎那
感到屬於你的氣息

即使很多一起過的
想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見
但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我我承認
回憶也許你的

當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我總是太感性

失戀的都有惰性
失戀的都記住約定
當理想的世界當理想的剎那
因愛無分你的我的

即使很多一起過的
想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見
但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我我承認
回憶也許你的

當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我總是太感性

2009-10-18T23:42:00.002+08:00

emo days is approaching again...sometimes this kind of news hit it right to my heart...and i begin to pity myself...no i don't want to be like that...please

O.O

2009-09-21T20:53:00.002+08:00

I don't like my life now...there is so much to worry...so much to think...
Wrong decisions have been made...there is no way to return...

张智霖 - 十指紧扣

2009-09-20T16:46:00.004+08:00

The melody of this song keep playing in my mind these days, i like this guy~ :)

即使可以畅聚
最幸运的一对伴侣

沿途仍旧要牵手伴随
原来为了温馨之中带着了恐惧
若那对手放松了
会怕失去

紧紧拥抱以外
我用什么感到被爱
沿途陪着你手松下来
遗留十寸空间谁相信
你在乎我
若那缺陷拉阔
随时会分开

谁都知双手可紧扣
不依不舍的背后
这个信念有多温柔
从害怕会被拥有
直到力气不够
十只手指终於找得到对手
[十只手指就是绝望时扶手]

能开不开心都紧扣
辛不辛苦都接受
是一个成就
可惜我只想与一个人尾指一勾
也没有
[可惜我只得我一个人绕起双手]

Happening Friday

2009-09-12T14:13:00.010+08:00

Two days before this Friday I got the invitation from my dear ping ping to her BBQ cum birthday party in jb, yes i was so excited, as we seem never celebrate birthday together anymore ever since i came here. As she is not so close with most of the ch ppl in singapore, no one is willing to go, ya maybe some of them are busy, but some of them are always that kind of ppl who always say "har...don't feel like going lerr" "who else going" "if xxx not going i also don't wish to go lerr"...no offense but i feel quite mood-spoiling everytime i hear this...

In the end i went with daniel. Hmm daniel...i almost cannot rmb how he looks like...we never talk in ch...i know him and he knows me but we never talk to each other, ya we have many this kind of "friends" in ch haha...but nvm at least got someone acc me to go to this dangerous city in msia =p we chit chatted like old friends, didn't have any awkward feeling at all...oh ya yuanyi said he is very very gentleman *raising both hands and legs to agree with her*. We always wonder why most of the guys around us can never have any connection to this phrase, yes u r right...we mean amcisa guys lol

Alright, in the BBQ party, DOCTORS everywhere. Only two of us are outsiders, but the thing is, daniel is LAWYER T_T Everyone is so good at speaking and socializing, I really feel shameful using my broken english to talk with them...Nothing special happened in the party...There was a girl from perak and sorry i cannot rmb her name, she is very friendly, we talked for a while... daniel know keanguan and his sis...and i know keanguan and weiping's parents...so luckily it's not so boring for us lol...it has been a long time since i see weiping's parents. I found that her dad looks much older...and then only i realized, i've been knowing weiping for almost 8 years...ya time flies, probably she will have the same feeling also if she happens to meet my parents...

BBQ party ended, they all going for 2nd round...my initial plan was to follow weiping, then stay overnight in her hse and come back singapore on the next day. However during the afternoon lunch with peijun's gang, i knew that they are going to sing k in jb at night! Yeah then i can go back together with them instead of taking mrt alone by myself in the second day...I thought it was a nice plan, but guess what? i join their k session at 11plus and the k session extended to 4am...crazy man...though it was very happy joining them XD

By the time i reached hall i was dying T_T...the sky was turning bright and when i went to bed, it was 647am in the morning...kill me!!!

十面埋伏

2009-08-27T22:36:00.001+08:00

闻说你时常在下午来这里寄信件
逢礼拜流连艺术展还是未间断
何以我来回巡逻遍仍然和你擦肩
还仍然在各自宇宙错过了春天

只差一点点即可以再会面
可惜偏偏刚刚擦过
十面埋伏过孤单感更赤裸
总差一点点先可以再会面
仿佛应该一早见过
但直行直过
只差一个眼波将彼此错过

迟两秒搭上地下铁能与你碰上么
如提前十步入电梯谁又被错过
和某某从来未预约为何能见更多
全城来撞你但最后处处有险阻

只差一点点即可以再会面
可惜偏偏刚刚擦过
十面埋伏过孤单感更赤裸
总差一点点先可以再会面
仿佛应该一早见过
但直行直过只等一个眼波

轨迹改变角度交错寂寞城市又再探戈
天空闪过灿烂花火和你不再为爱奔波
总差一点点先可以再会面
悔不当初轻轻放过
现在惩罚我分手分错了么
分开一千天天天盼再会面
只怕是你先找到我但直行直过
天都帮你去躲躲开不见我

My liTtL3 ANg3L

2009-08-13T11:28:00.004+08:00

My tears dropped again...It was during yesterday night when I was chatting with you in msn. Can't remember how many times I've cried in front of you...For this time when I realized that you can only spend two days in Singapore, and I have no chance to say goodbye to you in airport, I feel really sad and I couldn't help but crying...I know you are important to me, but the thing is, this level of importance is totally out of my expectation...the feeling is so lost...and now my tears are rolling around my eyes again T_T Girl, I will miss you very very very very much!!!

Wong Bao Jing, you are an angel to me!

Friendship fOr3VeR

2009-07-26T21:18:00.005+08:00

在一个睡不着的晚上，突发奇想，发现自己认识和比较熟的朋友们，姓氏几乎都不一样呢！

小学：江美叶，吴嘉真，叶勇隆

中学：苏欣颖，邹远仪，林芮萦，蔡韵仪，游薇萍，徐筱慧，李美仪，郑莹儿，蒙国伟，陈伟文，叶志伟，陈其霆，杨明伟，刘青颖，王政鸿

大学：黄宝晶，廖崇嘉，罗文祺，覃彩霞，林颖嫣，陈慧婷，雷佩雯，傅舒馨，方佩君，张慧亨，刘丽萍，林家华，刘思锦，，周志豪，吴继成，许文彬，甘德权，叶成哲，刘建伟，谢玮信，朱国汉，曾俊耀，萧宏昌

还有很多，一些我忘了名字，一些我忘了姓氏，懒得写了。。。

在写名字的时候，越写越犹豫，到底该不该写某些人的名字？好像以前很熟，却又好像很久没联络了，现在好像一点都不熟了。突然发现，中学和大学的朋友，尤其是大学生涯中，有太多太多过客，跟许多人都只拥有一年半载或更短暂的友情。或许是因为，自由多了，面对的事多了，注重的事情不同，时间分配上的不同，让许多人都只有擦肩而过的缘分。也不一定，因为有些很多年都没见的朋友，再见面还是不会生疏，这也许就是中学生涯中最值得骄傲的事吧！

惊然发现，性格上的契合，在友情字典中更是不容忽视。我竟然忘了写某些朋友，是性格上和我不一样，却和我相处了不少日子的朋友。心里隐隐的存在着一丝内疚感。有人说过，像我这种性格的人，只会对我喜欢的朋友很好很好，而我不喜欢的人通常会讨厌我，因为我是个喜怒哀乐都写在脸上的人。我不否认，但我也已经在学习，尽量不表现自己的不高兴，不随便给脸色别人看。所以我不再是欣颖口中的小辣椒了。

我只希望，我心底真正珍惜的朋友，友谊可以长存。

2009-07-17T16:18:00.006+08:00

Had a great weekend with yingyan and weishin in penang, and also a wonderful time with yingyan in kl. I'm really blessed to have them as my friends. I love you both, muaks ^.^

tis is not bad

2009-07-09T15:33:00.001+08:00

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

2009-07-08T13:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I feel like I'm a coward. I have no guts to work on something that I really wish for, and end up missing the chance. As if an ostrich, the only thing I do is to bury my head on the ground @.@

2009-07-05T01:08:00.003+08:00

Recently keep watching hk dramas..as my mum is loyal fans of astro 314 and 311 channels...and thanks to ykedwin blog too! These tvb dramas sometimes really nice and attracting, especially stories with professional occupations and rich ppl's businesses...and sometimes the theme songs are very nice too...some of the actors not only act well but also can sing well...such as 张智霖...i love both the stories and theme songs of 澳门街 and 西关大少...the lyrics are still vivid in my mind...

# 宁愿没拥抱共你可到老
任由你来去自如在我心底亦爱过
如若碰到他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉 #

And out of nowhere, the melody of 律政新人王 theme song pop up in my mind...it sang by my favourite actor 林峰...whoa i could still remember the whole lyrics...no doubt it is really a nice song...

# 当这感觉未发生不知道你光临
我大概还可继续散心
无奈我的心不经意着了灯
为得不到的吸引
令我不纠缠亦不忍
当他手放在你身
才想到我是好友永没权利去伤感
忘记受过伤害施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐再期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便如恋人热爱 #

INs0mNi@

2009-07-04T03:22:00.003+08:00

It's 3.30am now. I've lain on my little bed for more than one hour and my eyes are still wide opened here. I woke up at 12noon today, which considered early ; I didn't have any caffeine in stomach today; No nap today. Insomnia? How could it be possible??!!! =.=

Ang3ls & D3m0ns

2009-07-02T02:04:00.005+08:00

I wonder if Ang3ls come after D3m0ns
as no one will realize the existence of angels
before demons shown up in the world
no matter what happens
and for whatever reason
let's be an angel
a happy angel
cheers

2009-06-30T01:27:00.002+08:00

kai ma always say i'm the cure whenever my kai ye angry...they sent me to put off his fire everytime when he was throwing temper to ppl...i need my own cure too...can i have one? :(

2009-06-29T02:23:00.001+08:00

How will it be
if i never been born to this world?

思念

2009-06-24T01:04:00.004+08:00

有人问，思念是甜的，还是苦的？
有一首歌说，那感觉是痛的

# 想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛 #

思念着别人的，心情无疑是复杂的
被思念着的，心情是怎样的呢？

...

2009-06-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

Talking phone with friends who can chat anything with you is really fun indeed. The over 3 hours "cook porridge" session with miss chow made me so excited about all the topic that we've "discussed" or in short, gossipppp :p

Yet the greyish blue mood persists. It become even worse after all these sad stories in the book and all these heartbroken songs in the playlist.

Gimme a hug pleaaseeee...

2009-06-18T23:56:00.003+08:00

刚刚在收拾残局的时候
我想起了两年前
我亲爱的室友趁我不在房的时候照爆了镜子
之后的某一天
我忘了什么原因从房间出发走路到学校
穿上拖鞋时有感觉到一点点地不舒服
经过ADM的时候脚底不停的传来刺痛感
我还是继续走走山坡走楼梯
在学校遇到很多很多人
我忘了为什么到最后我们会在SAC
大家都在研究我脚板上的伤口
朋友们围着我
买了指甲剪和针来救我
我记得很痛我当时在挣扎
我说我不要把刺拔出来
我以为只要不理它伤口久了就会愈合
我以为只是小小的刺
我从来没想过是玻璃

那时我很庆幸在我遇到困难的时候
有朋友在我身边照顾我
我很庆幸在我想放弃的时候
有人坚持要把刺挖出来
我很庆幸我拥有的幸运

刚刚我只是想从书橱里拿一本书来解解闷
却没注意到在我移动玻璃的时候它们的底面是不相连的
接着就是很响亮的声音
太快了快的我看不见任何东西
还好我的手还握着一部分的玻璃
就是那压在我脚板上的玻璃
爸爸以为我只是打翻了东西
在客厅喊了我一下
我以为他会来救我
等了五秒十秒十五秒
我意识到我还没办法自己移动
我才知道我应该喊救命

我没看见鲜红的血从我脚板上流出来
我也没感觉到一丝丝的疼痛感
只是玻璃的重量
在我脚板上留下了一点点的痕迹
移开了玻璃以后
脚底有刺刺的感觉
是一片闪闪发亮的玻璃碎
奇迹般的脚趾也没被刺破
谢天谢地我完全没有受伤
整个过程可以说真的很神奇

我很庆幸在我摔破玻璃的时候
还有爸爸来救我
我很庆幸压在脚板上的玻璃
还有我的手撑着
我很庆幸玻璃摔在地上的时候
碎片不是向着我的方向飞来

今天的我
本来还在懊恼
为什么遇到恶劣的对待时
感觉一点都不强烈
我误以为
仅存的一点点感情耗尽了
连生气的力气都失去了

现在的我才恍然大悟
我该庆幸我还拥有的幸运

不能说的秘密

2009-06-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐 oh
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
又何必去改變你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖指示我說再見
想象你在身邊在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

1st week of holiday

2009-06-16T12:56:00.005+08:00

Been hanging out almost everyday during my last two weeks of IA. This makes me a little bit boring during the first few days of my return in kl, yet it did not last for long... XD

Friday. Out movie with my ntu seniors, choyha and keyseng in midvalley and the gardens. Wonder why we date keyseng? Not because we need more accompanion, also not because i need driver :p ... the main purpose is to concern about keyseng's break up, with the aim to dig gossip... ops choy ha why u so bad :o!! Alright, back to the topic! Poor keyseng feel very sad and cannot let go, hope he will be fine after some time la.. As choyha said, the girl is 晤定性, she will dump this guy again if she meet another more potential guy, so break up the earlier the better...add oil for u keyseng! Oh ya, my comment about terminator salvation --> sucks! time and money wasting! I swear I will never watch terminator in cinema anymore!

Saturday. Movie again with primary buddies in pavillion. As usual, my dear cousin ah loong become the driver of three pretty ladies hahaha. My very first time to pavillion, and why it sounds so outdated lol. The whole design of pavillion is so nice that I think it is one of the best among all the shopping malls in kl. And talk about my two primary best friends, all these years I never stop wondering why my 眼光 so good during primary school, as they are really damn pretty now. I can hardly find anything to tease them, this make me miss my ntu roomie so much hahahahaha...I'm so so so sorry lyy XD. As for the movie, we watched drag me to hell. Miss bee yip was the most excited person who wanted to watch horror movie, but unexpectedly she was the only one who scream like hell in the cinema, we couldn't help but laughing nonstop while watching the movie lol. This movie not very nice but disgusting enough! Every "wat dat" thing must go into the girl's mouth...yucks really feel like wanna vomit!

Sunday. My beloved ssy's birthday. Miss ssy is sooo busy celebrating her birthday with tons of friends, but she arranged a k session in pavillion red box plus for her highschool buddies. It was enjoy listening to kokwai's high difficulty songs, it was fun listening to carmen's wrong pitch voice, and it was really fun singing 麦兜 songs in k box...but too bad rueyying and chowchow not there with us. Miss stewardess always need to make early appointment and miss chow chow still far far away in uk...hope I can meet them very soon! Anyway, H@pP3 B!rThD@Y to my dear Sh!n Y!N, u know I love you haha! (:

2009-06-11T16:15:00.003+08:00

Is it the time to give up?
hmm i think so...
find some distraction
keep it in the bottom of the heart
and move on

i like it

2009-06-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何
你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
想念汇成一条河

好想问你好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

2009-06-08T13:46:00.001+08:00

You don't know how I wish I could give you a hug
at the moment
take care...

抉择

2009-06-05T00:56:00.007+08:00

站在分岔路上
要如何去选择对的路
有谁能确切的告诉我
若其中一条是平淡无奇的康庄大道
另外一条是充满色彩却崎岖不平的道路
你会选择什么？

有谁能立刻下定决心的作出决定
又有谁会犹豫不决地不知该如何抉择

为什么会有人选择平凡的无惊无险
为什么会有人选择披荆斩棘的冒险之旅
有人说
因为他不喜欢改变
因为她喜欢刺激

可是有没有人知道
或许是因为他曾有过生活上的历练
无法再承受多一丝丝的折磨
或许是因为她厌倦了平凡无奇
无法再忍受多一丝丝的郁闷

我在想
为什么在他们眼中就只有这样呢？
看似无穷无尽的前方
一定不只有这两条路可以走
难道没听说过　路是人走出来的吗？

把自己局限在狭窄的空间
看到的就真的只有眼前的选择
或许　当你换个角度来看待
你会发现
原来康庄大道也可以很好玩有趣
原来所谓的坎坷不平
是让你迈向不再懦弱的旅程

又或许　自己在不断尝试的过程中
如此幸运的
寻找到了一个属于自己的舞台

当然
如果可以不考虑后果
抉择根本不困难
但如果不理会世俗的眼光
抉择就不再是抉择
因为已经下定了决心
做出了选择
做出了决定

这世上　没有什么是万能的
也没有什么是不可能的
要经历过才会拥有勇气
要尝试过才会懂得
其中的意义

Do U g3t Wh@t I m3aN?!!

2009-06-02T13:38:00.004+08:00

What if I said no?

Are u going to repeat and repeat until I say yes?

And u don't really believe me everytime I said I know

U just keep on asking and asking

I don't understand why u think so much

the ridiculous thing is

I don't understand why I think so much too

Am I afraid of something?

Yes probably

I scared I might lose what I have now if I keep going

But I don't want to stay at the original point

Go ahead?

Stay?

Go ahead?

Stay?

Do I really have choices?

Hmm...

Life is so complicated

dumpling festival?

2009-05-27T01:15:00.004+08:00

it seems getting so much closer...step by step...yet it moves further away...unexpectedly...that's life~

ahh dumpling festival... and ssy's blog reminds me about the fun competition that we joined during the last year of highschool...it lighten up my mood when i'm getting a little bit emo over small matters...hmm she is such a sweet girl...i miss her :)

2009-05-21T23:01:00.001+08:00

roomie, i can't get hall...*sob sob*
cannot stay together next sem...haiz so sad now :'(

IA presentation

2009-05-19T01:12:00.000+08:00

3 more days 3 more day 3 more days

another nice song - Reality

2009-05-17T01:03:00.002+08:00

Met you by surprise I didn't realize
That my life would change forever
Saw you standing there
I didn't know I cared
There was something special in the air

Dreams are my reality
The only kind of real fantasy
Illusions are a common thing
I try to live in dreams
It seems as it's meant to be
Dreams are my reality
A different kind of reality
I dream of loving in the night
And loving seems a night
Although it's only fantasy

If you do exist honey don't resist
Show me a new way of loving
Tell me that to do show me what to do
I feel something special about you

Dreams are my reality
A wondrous world where I like to be
Illusions are a common thing
I Try to live in dreams
Although it's only fantasy
Dreams are my reality
I like to dream of you close to me
I dream of loving the night
And loving you seem try
Perhaps that's my reality

a nice song

2009-05-16T02:09:00.000+08:00

When you smile my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight
i'II be hypnotized when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light
let's spend the night

Take me to far away
away to your secret place
take my tears, my fears
take all my pain
for which I'll repay someday
with a kiss and say
can't believe that I'm in love
in love again

when the stars don't shine
and when the birds don't fly
and when the flowers cry
and when the rain runs dry
when the violet's red
and when the rose turn blue
baby I'll still be in love with you

Take me to far away
away to your secret place
take my tears, my fears
take all my pain
for which I'll repay someday
with a kiss and say
can't believe that I'm in love
in love again

IA report

2009-05-09T22:50:00.012+08:00

Introduction:
Rushing IA report in my little room in hall 12 for the whole saturday @.@

Materials and Methods:
roomie knew that i will be alone
so she left me this

Limitations:
the weather is so hot
luckily i got this
but still hot =.=

Results:
how to do how to do???!!!

concentrating

emo-ing

don't panic slow slow think
play camera first

act cute ^.^

Discussion:
spot the difference??
The difference is with specs and with no specs lol
got one big pimple on my face T_T

as mentioned above, i have finished intro, materials and methods, results and discussion :)
so abstract, conclusion, references are to be done tmr!!!

2009-05-05T00:11:00.003+08:00

失败的征兆
隐隐约约地浮现眼前
她遗失了勇气
无法再去追寻

告诉自己
不可以不可以再次逃避

却怕了却慌了
转过头朝着相反方向
开始逃跑
流着眼泪
说服自己不再回头

终究
还是崩溃了

2009-04-30T20:35:00.003+08:00

Trying hard to keep myself busy with songs, movies, dramas and all these funny entertainment shows from internet. But still, i feel lonely without my friends and family around. I began wondering, since when I've become so dependent on others. Yes i could still remember how my friends turn me into this. They hang out with me when they are free, get help from me when they need me, call when they miss me; they also laugh together with me when I'm happy, listen to me when I'm moody, treat me as their buddy and always keep me as company. All these have turned me into a different person, very different from what I was like. I become more sensible yet more vulnerable, less hiding in front of people who care about me yet it make me become easier to cry, but I couldn't deny that i like it this way. It seems meaningless to sing alone, it seems boring to watch dramas without roomie, it seems torturing that no one knows your secret and no one understands you, and it is not fun at all doing things all by oneself. That's why I appreciate having people entertaining me when I'm bored, having shoulders to cry on when I'm sad, having place to lie down when i'm tired, and I do not need to pretend when I'm unhappy. I want to say that I'm really lucky being me...Thank you so much for being my friend :)

2009-04-19T22:20:00.009+08:00

当时间静悄悄的从人们身边溜走时
人们可曾意识到自己改变了多少
有的人从幼稚变得成熟
有的人从任性变得和蔼
有的人从无知变得果断
也有的人一成不变
更有的人
从娇嫩变得蛮横
从天真变得现实
从无邪变得世故

又有多少人能判断
这改变代表的是好或是坏

朋友说
在成长过程中
适当的改变无可避免
但若是为了别人而改变自己的本性
不是做不到
是不想委屈自己
不想妥协
人总是会有私心
总是想要成为强势的一方
到最后如何获得胜利
就要看哪一方比较害怕失去吧

当岁月增长
人们的遭遇环境的压力经验的累积
曾经看过听过面对过的故事
或多或少都直接间接的造成了影响
改变了人们的个性

在不公平的环境下生存的
懂得退一步是海阔天空
不去计较太多琐碎事
但在事事追求完美
事事坚持平等的人眼中
这是不容许存在的懦弱
有多少人能告诉我
这到底是谁对谁错

而在勾心斗角的战争中
往往需要一定的功力
才能置身事外
默默地做一个旁观者
很多时候
不管你有多不情愿
前方还是存在着许多无法预知的陷阱
埋藏在看似风平浪静的路上
这就是现实社会的残酷

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如果
闭上眼睛
向前踏一小步
再深深地吸一口气
默默的从十数到一的时侯
缓缓地睁开双眼
梦想就会实现
那该有多好

happie weekend!

2009-04-16T00:05:00.013+08:00

Although the cantonese ah ma blogged earlier than me, i still want to post in my blog XD

They are my lovely highschool friends ^_^

Cantonese ah ma's bf in red shirt

CraZy stewardess ah ma and me

"They made my day with nonstop jokes and laughter"
:)
Quoted from cantonese ah ma's blog

得失？

2009-04-07T00:39:00.015+08:00

为什么每一次以为会得到回报的时候
就无缘无故的又失去了

人生就是要这么无奈吗
还是因为没有真正努力争取过
才得不到一直期待的结果呢

有啊有付出过啊
不够吗
你知不知道
脆弱的心很容易因为挫折而退缩呢

还是无法忘记那片无忧无虑的蓝色天空

每个人的心都藏着许多秘密
so do i

what is the point to lie
i did nothing wrong

and I yell
I'm never gonna be as selfish as you

emo

2009-03-27T00:16:00.002+08:00

Recently my mood is like roller coaster, shoot up high and then down to the bottom, repeat and repeat again, argghhhh when will it comes to an end???!!!! I really can't cope with it, plsssss saveeee meeeeeeee~~~~~~~

updated in msn spaces too (=

2009-01-11T23:49:00.001+08:00

After birthday

2008-11-10T23:41:00.007+08:00

Today is Monday. My coursemate songda let me chose ytd--either treat me supper last night to celebrate my birthday or treat me dinner tonight to celebrate my belated birthday. Of course i choose dinner la hahaha. We went to IMM to have an early dinner, coz i have to teach tuition at 730pm. Xiao tian recommend us to go to "Long Beach" seafood restaurant. Aiya the restaurant open at 6pm. By the time we ordered it's already 630pm. So i called boss to cancel the tuition lol.

Ok then what we ordered? Of course seafood la! We had a "奶皇螃蟹“ crab crab as our main course，this is strongly recommended by our coursemate xiao tian wow! We also ordered a spicy indonesian prawn and another XO sauce geoduck. Wah these seafood really so delicious lo!!! Know what is geoduck? Geoduck is not duck, it is a kind of clam. And songda checked wikipedia just now--Geoduck, like shark fin soup and black bear gall bladders, is highly regarded for its claimed physiological effect. In the case of geoducks it is the "enhancement of male performance". Hahahaha i should let him eat more, if i knew this earlier :p

Hohoho super satisfied with this dinner. If exam is not coming i will agree to have dessert after the dinner geh, nvm la study hard hard is also important. Thank you very muchie my friend! He said if it is not my 21st birthday he will only greet me by a simple sms, hohoho so i should thank to 21st also~

After i back hall, i got another chocolate cake from my cbe friend, thank you again! This year birthday really super fat, eat so much >.< Oh ya, last but not least, have to thank my mum also for the golden key that i "force" her to buy for me hahaha!

birthday celebration with friends

2008-11-09T21:35:00.014+08:00

Presentation for computing project was just over, here comes another homework for computing. This homework is optional, but will give us extra 5% in our final marks if we submit. So yiling and shiqi decided to join me and tam to do the homework together. But i went for birthday celebration on friday. So i did not join the discussion. And then saturday morning i received an email from my computing group mates. They've decided to give me a very meaningful gift, that is to give me an easy task in the homework, so that i can spend more time on my celebration, hahahaha. Yiling also bought me a nice MNG shirt and a pretty birthday card. Love them very much ^_^

So i had dinner with my chong hwa highschool mates on saturday night. Miss chow chow and mr tang promised to celebrate for me, hahaha, so they treated me sushi tei in vivo. I shared the sashimi salad and sushi with chow chow. It was my first time to have sushi with mango topping, and that's yummy! They also bought a very delicious chocolate banana cake which must be ordered beforehand. This cake house in vivo really look very "ba bai", they only serve ppl who'd ordered, and there isn't any single slice of cake selling inside, i can only found a few boxes and wrappers and a cashing machine and two cashiers there. If they really don't intend to sell things there then why still waste money to open a shop leh?

After that i back to my hall and prepare for 12am. As usual, my groups seniors and my batch juniors will come to sing birthday songs. Hmm since this is exam period, can say quite a lot of people came, hahaha. But quantity is not important as long as i have my good friends with me >.< Another chocolate cake from my ex-squatter roomy choy ha, thank you so much. Thank you my dear sisters for the birthday cards too, i love the cute little angel. And thanks songda in advanced coz he is going to treat me dinner on monday hahahaha.

Just found out my dear qi wrote a blog for me, do take a look, though there are just pictures inside. Thanks :p http://flyingmoon4.spaces.live.com/blog/cns!B874C39DFEDA0AAF!4001.entry

birthday celebration with sisters

2008-11-08T13:04:00.006+08:00

Been planning to do this since i saw pui ee's birthday celebration :p Though i don't have so many friends and as rich as her, and everyone is now busy mugging to prepare for exam, i still want to do something like this. So me and baobao decided to dress up and have a nice dinner in somewhere with nice ambient yet affordable, to celebrate our birthdays. We searched restaurants in the internet and chose a cafe serves ribs, to compensate the regret that we never had ribs in usa >.<

So baobao and I went shopping in the afternoon, qi joined us for dinner. There was a business suited guy called Jeft approached us when we were walking on the street in orchard. He said he is looking for model for a don't know what company. We never really pay attention to what he was talking about because we think that's impossible for us to become model hahaha. I really think that he was asking the wrong person, and i still remember the first sentence i told him was "but we are so short", hahahaha sounds funny! Anyway he let us wrote down our name and contact number, let's see if anyone will call us uahahahaha~

We decided to have our dinner in Big O Cafe in orchard. Three of us shared a salad with roasted chicken and duck, and each of us ordered barbecued baby ribs as our main course. The ribs is yummy! And after that it's time for desserts. Qi and I wanted so much to try the durian cake called "Spike D", which is strongly recommended by the others. Baobao is anti-durian, so she chose a cake called pineapple upside down, something like that. I love the durian cake so much lol, though their cakes are a bit too sweet. The pineapple cake is just normal for me, probably the durian smell in my mouth was too overwhelming hahaha. After that we continued our shopping again. They bought me a nice espirit cap as birthday gift, i like it so much, thanks my dears.

After that we went back to my room to had a small chat, and play some intelligence games. Anyone who is interested to play please go to http://www.zhangshiqi.com.cn/ and http://neutralxe.net/esc/r1.html. The games are quite challenging!

birthday celebration with coursemates

2008-11-06T15:31:00.008+08:00

Wed after signal processing CA, went to sakae sushi to have lunch with coursemates, to celebrate qin yi & my birthday. Happy23rd birthday to qin yi :p

They bought a pilot bear wearing a swimming google as my birthday gift, while qinyi got a handbag. Sakae sashimi was nice!

snatching the last piece of sashimi with xue fen

delicous!!!

my present --------- birthday girls

Last week

2008-10-31T23:40:00.002+08:00

Next week will be my last study week in year 3 sem 1, after that it will be my BIRTHDAY and Final EXAM!!!~~~This semester, everything ends late. Lab, tutorials, quizzes, projects and tons of homeworks. My last lab will be on next Monday, thanks to so many Monday public holidays this year :( Two CAs in the coming tues and wed, and computing project presentation in the coming fri. Project report submission in another week...and homeworks...and this and that...So stress man -.-lll

Oh my goodness!! Oh my goodness!!! Can't believe that i'm turning 21 in a week, hohohoho~~~Exam is around the corner but birthday celebration is a must XD Looking forward to that day yohoo!!!

怀念

2008-10-21T19:03:00.007+08:00

刚刚从can 2走回房，走在那个长长的走廊，那个已经很久没有走过的走廊，对啊，自从2nd year搬到hall 15之后就很少走路到can 2吃饭了。走廊的灯还没开，可是天已经很黑了。抬头望望天空，灰灰黑黑的，经过hall3和16，黄黄的路灯照亮了整个马路。再走到我的hall12，白白的路灯像篮球场的spotlight一样，很刺眼。

我想起在yellowstone的时候，刚开始是多么的不习惯。那里的灯少得可怜，就算有也多数是黄黄的灯。晚上放工后，走回房的路是困难的，因为没有路灯。看见有人随身带手电筒和电话来照路，更是确定自己来到了一个偏僻的乡村地区。有时候会很期待天空下起厚厚的白雪，为我照亮眼前黑暗的路。久而久之，习惯了，就不觉得怎么样了。有时候抬头看看天空，看见很多很多的星星，一闪一闪的，还有很亮很亮的月亮，会觉得很开心很兴奋，很想拍下那么美丽的夜景给朋友家人看，告诉他们我来到了一个这么不可思议的地方。

虽然有时候会不小心踩到水，有时候路有点凹凸不平，有时候不小心踢到石头，虽然常常把鞋子踩进烂泥，整只脚插进雪地，把它磨得旧旧脏脏的，自己却很有满足感，这是证明了自己真正的享受大自然，享受爬山涉水的乐趣。

记得有一天，和朋友从employee pub走回宿舍的路上，那时候的路是很暗很暗的，天气也很冷很冷。走着走着，没有了那种伸手不见十指的感觉了，抬头望望，看见很长很大一片的银河，伴随着数以万计的星星，好美好美，真的，美得我不知道怎么去形容。那天，我再一次真正爱上天空。

白天的天空呢？精神奕奕。像棉花一样的云，一朵一朵的，有时候很有卡通云的感觉，有时候很可爱，蔚蓝的天空，衬托出的云朵是最漂亮的。蓝天白云，原来是这样的。而黄昏的云呢？富丽堂皇，浪漫优雅。金色的阳光从云朵中发散出来的，是令人惊叹的色彩，就像在天堂一样。很强很强的风不停的吹，云朵们也不停的变化形状，加上渐渐微弱的阳光，创造出来的是千变万化的美丽图案。曾经有很多个傍晚，我和宝晶会到喷泉旁野餐，欣赏那一幅幅让人舍不得把视线移开的夕阳。我好喜欢那里的天空。

很想再回到那个远离城市的地方，走在路上和每个不认识的人点头打招呼，摸一摸帅帅的拉布拉多犬的毛，和不怕生的小孩玩耍，在酒店lobby可以听听老uncle弹钢琴的优美旋律，好运时还会听到别人拉小提琴和uncle飙琴，听听去那里的游客们的故事，得空可以骑马，爬山，划船，吃便宜到爆的Haagen Daaz。总有一天，我一定要找机会回去那里。

Hall 12

2008-10-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

This is the best hall I ever stay, because it is super near to school, makes me never late to school this semester hohoho! And they give me a nice roommate, this is what i appreciate the most!

However, they are going to renovate this hall during this december =.= How unlucky i am! So i have to move out in early december and move in again in january. During this period, i've chosen to squat in baobao's room, since she said that she will not come back to singapore during december :p

The renovation works include installation of air-con, changing of flooring, lighting, ceiling fans, wardrobes, bed frames, mattresses and mosquito netting, curtains and painting of the walls. I wonder how can they complete all these in one month. Omitofo, hope that they can make it, and provide us the best hall in ntu(better than hall 3 & 16) after the renovation.

luxurious weekend

2008-10-12T22:41:00.002+08:00

I went for painted skin with choy ha last saturday. It is a nice movie, zhou xun is so so so pretty. In comparison, zhao wei lose a lot behind. About the storyline, i just wonder why the general not tempted by the "foxie" in the end. Because i hope zhou xun can have a good ending hahaha :p

This friday i went for mama mia with qi. Also a very nice movie, but it reminds me the mama mia musical show in las vegas. That was really awesome, i even think that the musical show 's actors can sing a lot better than the actors in movie. After the movie we met pei yu dinner in kfc, and went shopping in imm later on. Bought a 10 bucks trousers in S&K. Oh man how come S&K become so cheap, long pants only sell at 10 dollars =.= is it really SHE 's represented brand?

Saturday, i have two gathering. One is chong hwa gathering bbq in ntu, another is yellowstone gang gathering. I chose to join the latter one. So we dinner in ichiban restaurant in suntec, the food there was good, and the environment was also comfortable. All of us chit chatted about our journey in usa, and our life after that. Later on, some decided to continue the gathering in esplanade, some decided to go back to school earlier. I feel quite tired and made up my mind to go back to school. Had a small talk with tang wei, found that this guy is a very nice and friendly china guy. He is not the kind of irritating china ppl who always talk super loudly in public area. lol.

Sunday, gathering with yellowstone china gang. We had steamboat buffet in bugis. I don't really like the place, it was too hot and crowded. And the food was not worth the price. However i enjoyed talking with them, oh ya, this is my first time hanging out with china ppl. Heard some gossip from margeret - james bought a 500 bucks necklace for the girl he is wooing. Wow he is really super generous. James really geng, he also planning to go back to yellowstone and work as a server next yr. Hope he can earn much much money then.

Omg! I have big big dinner in these three days continuously. No wonder i found that i'm getting rounder and rounder recently. Should go swimming next week, to burn some fat away, hahaha~

my squatter roomy

2008-10-04T17:44:00.006+08:00

In mid of August, choy ha was found legally swapping by the hall 14 officer. She was evicted by hall 14, and as a results, she squatted legally in my room. As a legal squatter, she was only given a room key and a mattress. Almost every night, we sleep at the same time together, with her mattress on the floor beside my bed. We have our meals together, chit-chatted together, go gai gai together aa well. She was so worried that she'll disturb me and my roomy as a squatter. That's why she will go computer room every night to do her stuff, go out to school every early morning and buy a lot of things for us to eat. In fact, we are very happy staying together with her.

My roomy, ying yan is a nice girl, but she always not staying at room, and usually don't come back to sleep during weekend. What about my dear sisters in ntu? worm went to norway, wen qi always pak toh and go home, baobao always study and go home. So i become quite close with choy ha during this period. Life in ntu become not so boring with her. She is a very important companion for me. The first time in ntu i had 3 meals with the same person in the same canteen :p That's with her. She is really a nice senior and nice friend.

Yesterday i was told that she got her room finally. It is in hall 2 block 3. A bit far away from my hall. Actually, in deep of my heart, i feel quite unwilling and disappointed. I hope she can stay together with me for longer time, though i know that staying in my room is quite inconvenient for her. She doesn't have her own table, own cupboard own bed and cannot use her own computer.

Wish choy ha jie jie really got her luck back, got a nice roomy and all the best in her fyp lahhhhh. I will miss the days with her in hall 12.

after recess

2008-10-01T14:35:00.002+08:00

I kept wondering why all of my third year friends so busy in the first half sem but not me. Then i realized that almost everyone had tons of projects to do. For my course, first half sem results is assessed by CA, which is mid-term exam. That's y i was so "free" compare to other ppl. But now is second half sem already, so now is my turn to do projects T_T. Frankly, i prefer CA to project. Haiiz, hope can team with nice project mate this time la.

to my friend

2008-09-28T16:37:00.006+08:00

to be frank with u
i would rather you tell me the truth before i ask u
i asked because i wanted to know what happen
i wanted to know what should i do next
i wanted to make sure the next step i take would not be the wrong one
but u made me feel like i was a fool
why? is being honest so reluctant for u?

in the end i realize what is happening
but i'm hurt
not because of i'm not the chosen one
it is because u never tell me the reason
why still give me hope since u've decided?
i never blame the decision u made
i understand the situation
the reason is acceptable for me
i'm thinking
if u could tell me honestly, and earlier
i would not feel as if being fooled around

even though i'm complaining here
i still appreciate our friendship

=.=

2008-09-27T00:51:00.002+08:00

Stress and panic overwhelmed the moment i back to ntu. I am shortlisted for IA interview on next tuesday, 330pm. Hold on, tuesday? 330pm? I think i have a CA on tuesday. Ya, the elective -psychology of crisis stress management, at 5.45pm. Shit! Shit! Shit! Can i back to ntu on time? I have no idea. Can I skip the CA? 40% of total marks, will fail in final if i skip, though I've put SU option. How come I so lucky =.=

sadzzz

2008-09-20T01:27:00.001+08:00

Just received a bad news. I'm sad :`(

Busy week @_@

2008-09-16T20:52:00.002+08:00

Wah so busy @_@
Last Mon Wed Fri - tuition
Thurs - Control in Biosystems CA
Sat - Tzu ji hand language performance
This Mon - give tuition + chairperson recruitment
Tues - Bioimaging CA
Wed - tuition
Thurs - Signal bioprocessing CA
Fri - tuition again!
After that ???
RECESS WEEK!!!! WAHAHAHAHA
Yeah can go home finally~ But my xiao hooi went to england already T_T . She is such a funny pretty girl, brings a lot of laughter to my life when we were in high school. I will miss her very very very much. Bon voyage my friend~

What I want to do during recess week? Besides shopping, sleeping, eating, another important thing is to see saw shin yin 's new boyfriend...Hohoho!!! But right now, have to study hard hard for my CA, and submit my formal report before recess. Gambate!!!