just a little bit of faith
i guess
probably a little bit of luck
or
a little bit of guts
there you are
so near yet so far
are we losing it soon
let's see
let's wait
let's move on

我犹豫了

最不想面对的事情出现了
怎么办？
可以继续装傻下去吗？
是时候逃离所有人
在无人岛上徘徊了

Babe where are you?

BITCH! YOU THINK YOU ARE RIGHT ALL THE TIME AND YOU BLAME ME FOR EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT MY RESPONSIBILITY! YES I HAVE MADE A RIGHT CHOICE FOR FORGOING THIS OFFER! THANKS TO THE USELESS AND STUPIDEST HR IN THE WORLD FOR NOT DOING HER JOB SO THAT I CAN GET AWAY FROM BOTH OF YOU AS FAR AS POSSIBLE! LIVE IN YOUR LITTLE OWN WORLD FOREVER! BITCHES!

What am I doing? :(

回忆往事
才发现许多东西
犹如冥冥中命运的安排
真的是命运吗？
或许这一次
我将会知道答案
如果这一次
我期待的再与我擦身而过
如果这一次
我想得到的再从我手中溜走
我只好认命了

Love Carrie Underwood

her songs touch my heart

the stories in the lyrics

the emotion

yes she sings so well

why you always want to be so cruel to me?
why you always make my life so miserable?
why you always hate me so much?
don't you remember?
we are sisters
i don't want to say this to you but really, karma does exist

如果。。如果。。。

上天能将某些人变消失掉

从我生命中消失

那就好了

finally settled down in bukit batok
get over the past
starting to look forward
hope everything goes well

currently in job searching mode...man it's so difficult to get a job

LOREAL LOREAL I WANT U!!! PLSSSS TAKE ME

i feel very "don't like" everytime i hear ur comment about me from other person...then i will always console myself...that you don't know me at all...hmm...am i lying to myself just to make me feel better?

oh by the way...i think when u comment about others in front of me..those comments are not so nice also....so i think...well you just think you yourself are the best afterall...

Last thing to do in ntu ---> fyp presentation!!!!! ah ah ah fast fast over...can't wait d...

yes, i often get scared when people push me too hard...i try to lie, ignore the calls, turn off my phone, and all the negative feelings overwhelm...i know i'm being stupid, childish and fool...i just couldn't help but avoid...haih forgive me...omitofo

Yes, two down! Last subject will be on 5th may, and fyp presentation on 11th may...After that I will be FREEEEEEEE~~~~~

yesterday i was studying like "oh man, i have wasted a lot of time, the 2nd paper is just two days away, i need to buck up and study hard..." but then today i woke up, i noticed that i still have another two days...hahaha stupid me...got the date wrongly and scare myself up...so now i'm slacking AGAIN hahahahhahahaha

i feel stress suddenly...but i want to countdown...the 3rd last paper in last sem of my uni life -> Therapeutic Engineering...Go to hell MARY CHAN...u r one of the worst lecturer in BIE...

原来是我不够认真，不够努力。。。

I HATE IT WHEN U ASK ME THE SAME QUESTION AGAIN AND AGAIN EVERYTIME I TALK TO U! DON'T U KNOW THAT EVERYTIME OUR CONVERSATION END AFTER U ASK ME THIS KIND OF BULLSHIT QUESTION? CAN U PLEASE DON'T BE SO CURIOUS ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S RELATIONSHIP STATUS? DON'T ASK ME EVEN IF U CANNOT RESTRAIN UR CURIOSITY!

Looking at the facebook updates about my friends, suddenly realize that I'm going to graduate in less than one month, yet i have no feeling at all. Without any sadness, i just wish to get over the exam, the fyp presentation as soon as possible. Neither do i feel excited too, as i can see the coming job hunting period will be tough. I can't help wondering, what will i be in the future?

UpD@t3

Here I am, typing blog in the dark, sitting uncomfortably on my sister's bed, accompanying coco who is sleeping on the floor, enjoying few more precious hours at home before heading back to the place i hate...Right now, I just want to record things that happen around me recently.

Ok let's start with coco. Whoa, she was shaved to botak! It feel so weird when i see her because she looks totally different. The body is so skinny, the eyes are so big and round, the overall appearance make me feel like she is another male chiwawa, but not our poodle coco. Luckily she is not ugly with the botak image. I like her new bald look anyway, it gives me fresh and clean feeling...at least i don't feel so damn hot when she is lying beside me lol

Well, Coco is getting older and smarter now. So there is less and less chance for her to be locked in the little cage. And she enjoy all kinds of fruits everyday. My parents are so so so dote on her that they purposely buy watermelon, water chestnut, papaya, mango, and apple for her. Plus, she can enjoy aircon in the room with us at night. But one bad thing is that sometimes she wakes up at midnight and acts hyperactively, try every alternative to wake me up. Same thing happen in the next morning when everyone in the house is preparing to work. She is more effective than any alarm clock, with all these kissing and licking =.=ll

Bought a new black frame specs for myself :D Went for teeth treatment and found out that my teeth condition is not so good as i think ops O.O Date lee mei yee and she fong fei kei again, as expected zzzzz

The electricity saman is not arrived yet, which means we have to bear the hot weather for an unknown period. Man it is just so torturing, i can't concentrate on report and assignment at all. I knew the importance of aircon very long time ago, but i never realize that my house can be so freaking hot without aircon T_T Saman Saman please come as earlier as possible to terminate this stupid punishment.

I heard the glass shattered sound when yyan text me. Her coursemate miss linzhiting cannot apply hall for the coming academic year. Ahhh the perfect plan for me to save money + stay with lyy + wait for baobao suddenly become impossible. SHIT! I was so worry. I have no way to contact people because the devil sis took the internet cable off to her bf house.

Many thoughts running through my mind that i could not sleep well for that night - I don't want to stay with people that i'm not close with, I don't know if there is still any vacancy left, I have rejected so many offers before, now i have to beg people to accept me again, how how how how how?!

At this kind of situation, you will realize the importance of having friends :D THANK YOU HONG PEI JUN AND LOI PHOOI MUN FOR YOUR KIND OFFER. And phooi mun, i owe u this - YOU ARE AN ANGEL~ hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Looking for a target
So that i can live better
Smile broader
Stay happier
Let's cheer for life!

Just randomly and suddenly craving for it. However it turns things down when u get what u do not expected, while u were imagining how happy u feel when u get what u want. Hmm...down down dei...

Being quite anti-social these few months. Trust me, it has absolutely nothing to do with my personality. The truth is --> frugality is a virtue. Sounds ridiculous? To some people, they would probably define it as stingy or something else. Well, i don't know where is the line that distinguishing these two words, but somehow you have no choice but to practice thrift. I understand that I haven't really reached such a critical situation. However, it is kind of like the saying "in fair weather, prepare for foul". You might not have any idea about the worries in my mind. So, forgive me if i say no to your invitation. =)

胡思乱想-ing

what i want what i want what i want
what am i doing what am i doing what am i doing

DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN DOWN

GIVE ME TRYPTOPHAN!!!!!!!

Happening Weekend

I began to like jb after the visit to pingping house over there ^^ The food was nice, the feeling was great, and her parents are always so friendly and cute when they speak mandarin. No doubt JB is a good place for them to learn this language XD

It is so nice to have a car~ I have this strong feeling ever since i stepped into this evil country named Singapore. This is pingping's second visit to Singapore after her primary graduation trip. Not so fun though, as traveling by bus and mrt is just so damn tiring.

It was sad to hear that she is going to Australia soon. If our evil government really extend the compulsory service to 10 years, she is going to stay there forever. Wake up Malaysia! And please government, stop doing all these stupid things anymore!

曾经多么希望自己能快点长大
现在却到了那个不想再长大的年龄
矛盾地活在这个世界
寻找着属于自己的天地

可以拥有一个简单容易的人生吗？
不需要有挑战
不需要有挫折
不会力不从心
不会失败

不奢望轰轰烈烈戏剧化的故事
只要有快乐平淡
就够了

只是说说而已
不能否认
看得越多
期待的越多
想得到的越多

人啊
总是贪心的

当什么都没有的时候
就希望有那么一点点
当有了一点的时候
就期待再多的一点点
就这样
到最后还不是什么都没得到

懂得了这个道理
却还是没办法从中走出来
能不无奈吗

i miss u

i miss coco so much...she loves to stick with me always...she loves to sneak into my room and wake me up every morning...she loves to follow everywhere i go...she loves to lie around people's foot and sleep...she loves to lick people...she is so naughty...

Why on earth u never change after so many years? All these years i've been tolerating, and u keep making it worse and worse and worse. The hatred feeling never fade. U are the most evil people in the world. I hate u!