to my friend

to be frank with u
i would rather you tell me the truth before i ask u
i asked because i wanted to know what happen
i wanted to know what should i do next
i wanted to make sure the next step i take would not be the wrong one
but u made me feel like i was a fool
why? is being honest so reluctant for u?

in the end i realize what is happening
but i'm hurt
not because of i'm not the chosen one
it is because u never tell me the reason
why still give me hope since u've decided?
i never blame the decision u made
i understand the situation
the reason is acceptable for me
i'm thinking
if u could tell me honestly, and earlier
i would not feel as if being fooled around

even though i'm complaining here
i still appreciate our friendship

=.=

Stress and panic overwhelmed the moment i back to ntu. I am shortlisted for IA interview on next tuesday, 330pm. Hold on, tuesday? 330pm? I think i have a CA on tuesday. Ya, the elective -psychology of crisis stress management, at 5.45pm. Shit! Shit! Shit! Can i back to ntu on time? I have no idea. Can I skip the CA? 40% of total marks, will fail in final if i skip, though I've put SU option. How come I so lucky =.=

sadzzz

Just received a bad news. I'm sad :`(

Busy week @_@

Wah so busy @_@
Last Mon Wed Fri - tuition
Thurs - Control in Biosystems CA
Sat - Tzu ji hand language performance
This Mon - give tuition + chairperson recruitment
Tues - Bioimaging CA
Wed - tuition
Thurs - Signal bioprocessing CA
Fri - tuition again!
After that ???
RECESS WEEK!!!! WAHAHAHAHA
Yeah can go home finally~ But my xiao hooi went to england already T_T . She is such a funny pretty girl, brings a lot of laughter to my life when we were in high school. I will miss her very very very much. Bon voyage my friend~

What I want to do during recess week? Besides shopping, sleeping, eating, another important thing is to see saw shin yin 's new boyfriend...Hohoho!!! But right now, have to study hard hard for my CA, and submit my formal report before recess. Gambate!!!

Another job

SA is a very special short form name for me. It represents "senior attached" in orientation camp, "student assistant" in library and "server assistant" in yellowstone national park. Yup, I've been named SA for a couple of times these two years. During this beginning of September, i got another job -teach tuition, thanks to qi and cg...lol. The working hour will be less, and the pay is better than working as SA in library. Have to try my best not to be fired by the parents, haha gambate in the new semester!!!

Industrial Attachment (IA)

This week, we have to write resume & choose IA company. Finally, my IA is approaching. Some say IA life is syok, some say IA life is tiring, some say IA can learn a lot, some say IA very "zo bo"...and then...some say must choose IA regarding to the fyp we want, some say must choose the job we like, some say must choose the highest pay company, some say must consider the location...so i began to look through my choices...

wow...quite happy when i see a lot of companies, so i look at all the project descriptions. Heard seniors said that usually one project will hire one student only. However we have 93 projects in total, and our batch only has 70+ students, so no need to worry too much. There are 19 interviewing companies and 3 non-interviewing companies. We can put 9 choices, first choice must put interviewing company and the rest must put non-interviewing. That mean we can only put 4 choices, however one of the non-interviewing company only hire NS ppl, so I can only put 3. I asked my seniors about their company last yr. Hui heng, qing wen and shi hua applied for ICES (research company) while jian chow applied electronic company. ICES got 66 projects for us this yr, but all biomaterial and chemical things, i don't want to do research, so i decided not to follow them. Ok, let's start with the interviewing companies...

S`pore Therapeutic, Assistive & Rehabilitative Technologies, design wheelchair wor...very interesting! But when i search the location from streetdirectory, oh man, really super far far away, i think to and fro need more than or about 4 hours. Aih, no choice, have to give up this. Biosensors interventional technologies, same location with the wheelchair, give up. Biosensors international, located in kallang, to and fro need 3 hours, give up again. Janssen-Cilag, a division of Johnson & Johnson, very popular, a lot of ppl apply last yr but only one ppl get...aiks...give up. Wyeth nutritionals - manufacturing of infant formulas...same reason with jassen-cilag. Aih left a few choices, have to choose research company.Finally i found something, i choose Bioprocessing Technology, located in biopolis, not far not near, do something about antibody in e.coli. But then today morning, maya (my pretty indonesian coursemate) told me that she is applying for this, oh shit oh shit, her results super good, how can i compete with her, the chance to be shortlisted for interview also will be super low if she apply the same thing with me. T_T. What should i do now??!!! DSO (national lab) - hire singaporean only =.= Biocomputing company - must know java,C++,matlab and bla bla bla, i never learn lor. And then...and then....i choose ICES. Located in Jurong Island, every weekdays got shuttle service at boonlay, high pay, can learn a lot of things...that is what i heard from ppl. Last few days still very stubborn, say what i don't want to apply research company, don't want to follow my seniors' step,this and that, then now...lol

Well, i choose the project about formulation of pharmaceutical powder. Hope that i can get my choice, being shortlisted for interview, succeed in my interview, have a nice supervisor, and get a good grade next year la...pray for me :p