kai ma always say i'm the cure whenever my kai ye angry...they sent me to put off his fire everytime when he was throwing temper to ppl...i need my own cure too...can i have one? :(

How will it be
if i never been born to this world?

思念

有人问，思念是甜的，还是苦的？
有一首歌说，那感觉是痛的

# 想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛 #

思念着别人的，心情无疑是复杂的
被思念着的，心情是怎样的呢？

...

Talking phone with friends who can chat anything with you is really fun indeed. The over 3 hours "cook porridge" session with miss chow made me so excited about all the topic that we've "discussed" or in short, gossipppp :p

Yet the greyish blue mood persists. It become even worse after all these sad stories in the book and all these heartbroken songs in the playlist.

Gimme a hug pleaaseeee...

刚刚 在收拾残局的时候
我想起了两年前
我亲爱的室友趁我不在房的时候照爆了镜子
之后的某一天
我忘了什么原因从房间出发走路到学校
穿上拖鞋时有感觉到一点点地不舒服
经过ADM的时候脚底不停的传来刺痛感
我还是继续走 走山坡走楼梯
在学校遇到很多很多人
我忘了为什么到最后我们会在SAC
大家都在研究我脚板上的伤口
朋友们围着我
买了指甲剪和针来救我
我记得很痛 我当时在挣扎
我说我不要把刺拔出来
我以为只要不理它 伤口久了就会愈合
我以为只是小小的刺
我从来没想过是玻璃

那时我很庆幸在我遇到困难的时候
有朋友在我身边照顾我
我很庆幸在我想放弃的时候
有人坚持要把刺挖出来
我很庆幸我拥有的幸运


刚刚 我只是想从书橱里拿一本书来解解闷
却没注意到在我移动玻璃的时候它们的底面是不相连的
接着就是很响亮的声音
太快了 快的我看不见任何东西
还好我的手还握着一部分的玻璃
就是那压在我脚板上的玻璃
爸爸以为我只是打翻了东西
在客厅喊了我一下
我以为他会来救我
等了五秒 十秒 十五秒
我意识到我还没办法自己移动
我才知道我应该喊救命

我没看见鲜红的血从我脚板上流出来
我也没感觉到一丝丝的疼痛感
只是玻璃的重量
在我脚板上留下了一点点的痕迹
移开了玻璃以后
脚底有刺刺的感觉
是一片闪闪发亮的玻璃碎
奇迹般的 脚趾也没被刺破
谢天谢地 我完全没有受伤
整个过程 可以说真的很神奇

我很庆幸在我摔破玻璃的时候
还有爸爸来救我
我很庆幸压在脚板上的玻璃
还有我的手撑着
我很庆幸玻璃摔在地上的时候
碎片不是向着我的方向飞来

今天的我
本来还在懊恼
为什么遇到恶劣的对待时
感觉一点都不强烈
我误以为
仅存的一点点感情耗尽了
连生气的力气都失去了

现在的我才恍然大悟
我该庆幸我还拥有的幸运

不能说的秘密

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐 oh
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖 指示我說再見
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

1st week of holiday

Been hanging out almost everyday during my last two weeks of IA. This makes me a little bit boring during the first few days of my return in kl, yet it did not last for long... XD

Friday. Out movie with my ntu seniors, choyha and keyseng in midvalley and the gardens. Wonder why we date keyseng? Not because we need more accompanion, also not because i need driver :p ... the main purpose is to concern about keyseng's break up, with the aim to dig gossip... ops choy ha why u so bad :o!! Alright, back to the topic! Poor keyseng feel very sad and cannot let go, hope he will be fine after some time la.. As choyha said, the girl is 晤定性, she will dump this guy again if she meet another more potential guy, so break up the earlier the better...add oil for u keyseng! Oh ya, my comment about terminator salvation --> sucks! time and money wasting! I swear I will never watch terminator in cinema anymore!

Saturday. Movie again with primary buddies in pavillion. As usual, my dear cousin ah loong become the driver of three pretty ladies hahaha. My very first time to pavillion, and why it sounds so outdated lol. The whole design of pavillion is so nice that I think it is one of the best among all the shopping malls in kl. And talk about my two primary best friends, all these years I never stop wondering why my 眼光 so good during primary school, as they are really damn pretty now. I can hardly find anything to tease them, this make me miss my ntu roomie so much hahahahaha...I'm so so so sorry lyy XD. As for the movie, we watched drag me to hell. Miss bee yip was the most excited person who wanted to watch horror movie, but unexpectedly she was the only one who scream like hell in the cinema, we couldn't help but laughing nonstop while watching the movie lol. This movie not very nice but disgusting enough! Every "wat dat" thing must go into the girl's mouth...yucks really feel like wanna vomit!

Sunday. My beloved ssy's birthday. Miss ssy is sooo busy celebrating her birthday with tons of friends, but she arranged a k session in pavillion red box plus for her highschool buddies. It was enjoy listening to kokwai's high difficulty songs, it was fun listening to carmen's wrong pitch voice, and it was really fun singing 麦兜 songs in k box...but too bad rueyying and chowchow not there with us. Miss stewardess always need to make early appointment and miss chow chow still far far away in uk...hope I can meet them very soon! Anyway, H@pP3 B!rThD@Y to my dear Sh!n Y!N, u know I love you haha! (:

Is it the time to give up?
hmm i think so...
find some distraction
keep it in the bottom of the heart
and move on

i like it

你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何
你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
想念汇成一条河

好想问你 好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久 沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

You don't know how I wish I could give you a hug
at the moment
take care...

抉择

站在分岔路上
要如何去选择对的路
有谁能确切的告诉我
若其中一条是平淡无奇的康庄大道
另外一条是充满色彩却崎岖不平的道路
你会选择什么？

有谁能立刻下定决心的作出决定
又有谁会犹豫不决地不知该如何抉择

为什么会有人选择平凡的无惊无险
为什么会有人选择披荆斩棘的冒险之旅
有人说
因为他不喜欢改变
因为她喜欢刺激

可是有没有人知道
或许是因为他曾有过生活上的历练
无法再承受多一丝丝的折磨
或许是因为她厌倦了平凡无奇
无法再忍受多一丝丝的郁闷

我在想
为什么在他们眼中就只有这样呢？
看似无穷无尽的前方
一定不只有这两条路可以走
难道没听说过　路是人走出来的吗？

把自己局限在狭窄的空间
看到的就真的只有眼前的选择
或许　当你换个角度来看待
你会发现
原来康庄大道也可以很好玩有趣
原来所谓的坎坷不平
是让你迈向不再懦弱的旅程

又或许　自己在不断尝试的过程中
如此幸运的
寻找到了一个属于自己的舞台

当然
如果可以不考虑后果
抉择根本不困难
但如果不理会世俗的眼光
抉择就不再是抉择
因为已经下定了决心
做出了选择
做出了决定

这世上　没有什么是万能的
也没有什么是不可能的
要经历过才会拥有勇气
要尝试过才会懂得
其中的意义

Do U g3t Wh@t I m3aN?!!

What if I said no?

Are u going to repeat and repeat until I say yes?

And u don't really believe me everytime I said I know

U just keep on asking and asking

I don't understand why u think so much

the ridiculous thing is

I don't understand why I think so much too

Am I afraid of something?

Yes probably

I scared I might lose what I have now if I keep going

But I don't want to stay at the original point

Go ahead?

Stay?

Go ahead?

Stay?

Do I really have choices?

Hmm...

Life is so complicated