It is so happy to see the new member in my house...yeah its name is coco...a poodle XD

DoWn

Now here I am, in my neighbour's room, using my neighbour's lappy *long long sigh*

I'm so not used to it...without the company of miss curly and mr. big screen...yes the stupid desktop breakdown after the exam...everything has become so inconvenient...i got nothing to do when i stay in room...NOTHING, NOTHING AT ALL

No music, no drama, no fyp interim report, no facebook, no msn. See? Computer is just soooo important for me because it is the only entertainment in NTU. Everything is connect directly and indirectly to computer and internet. I did hang out with friends, went sing k, went shopping...but at the time i step into the little room this empty feeling spring in...i cannot bomb the music loudly in room (this is what i always do when miss curly is not around), i have no books at hand to read before i sleep (another thing i always do at home), i have no one to talk to...oh man...this is just too torturing...

Luckily miss neighbour is still in ntu preparing for her last paper...i wonder how am i gonna continue the boring life in ntu for the rest of the week before i depart for my bangkok trip *sob sob*

Somebody please save me...

exam is over ^^

My birthday ^^

Had a great shopping day with lyy and got my first birthday present on Thursday. No doubt lyy is a very good companion because whenever i hang out with her, i know that it is worth everything! Relaxing, exciting, fun and happy -- that's what i can describe, i enjoy every moment that i spend with her ^^

Well, the next one is my lunch date with seniors in sakae sushi. I had no idea that my boss doesn't like sushi at all, so i feel quite paiseh for choosing sushi restaurant. And i think the bill is quite expensive, but anyhow, thank you heng aik very much for the big treat ^^

Then the random supper with peijun, jingsian and ziheng. These people are also my favourite chit-chatting partners. Life can never be boring as long as they are around ^^

Birthday's eve -- the day we fulfilled our dreams haha :D I had a great time with lyy at the safra mall near jurong point. It was sooooo fun and we even think there's no enough time for us to sing all the songs! Ops...have to praise lyy again, though i very reluctant to say it out lol...Yah, my ntu life become so colorful ever since i knew you, i appreciate it very much to have you as my roomie hehe ^^

Ahh...not finished yet! After the k session, we went for ice cream! My favourite haagen daaz!! I have to say, it really made my day!!! :D :D :D The k session was happy enough, but then this random ice cream session made a perfectly ending for the celebration ^^

Later on, the dinner time. Honestly i was not looking forward to the dinner date, due to many reasons. However, the restaurant was quite nice, both food and ambience are perfect. Highly recommended for couple who wish to celebrate their days in a romantic environment. I'm not alcohol-addicted, but i think it would be a plus if wine was served that night ^^

Midnight, at 12am, the lights off! As usual, the birthday song, then blow water time. However the atmosphere seemed awkward. Anyway, I'm glad that they came, thanks to wq, pt, pj, js, zh ^^

And also baobao and weishin's call, sms, msn, facebook wishes from everyone...thank you thank you! ^^

The actual day. Many wishes from people, thank you everyone. A very sweet birthday card from my lovely coursemate rike, not to forget miss yiling's early present on friday because she thought my birthday is on 6th ^^

Dinner with my buddies wai mun and chow chow. Was planning to go swensens for ice cream, but the overwhelming of ice creams and holland village really shoot up my unwillingness to visit there anymore. I suggest going for bali thai in IMM. Hmm wai mun doesn't like spicy food, but since it is my birthday he doesn't mind to go for me, and I also didn't have any paiseh feeling towards him...so i made the decision to go there :D Yah it is so good to have these old friends with me, i don't have to feel stressed up for making any decisions ^^

Felt so sorry to Qi ting because he called me for at least five times but i didn't picked up the phone. And I felt so regret after rejecting his offer for sending me a gift from uk hahaha...aiyaya...anyway i was glad that he called ^^

Received a very surprise present from phooi mun and pei jun. Miss phooi mun was really busy for her fyp presentation and CA, so i wasn't expected to get anything from her. I was so happy that she still make it for me after her busy schedule, really appreciate these two pretty girls for giving me a big big cute surprise gift ^^

Not to forget miss yingyan's 11.59pm surprise. I know she really want to give me a very last memorable surprise because it would be my last birthday celebration in NTU hostel. Thank you very much ^^

The post-birthday celebration at bakerzin with two ladies hui teng and carmen. I thought it is only a casual dinner, the cake was quite unexpected lol. Miss hui teng kept saying that she was craving for a dessert or a cake, i had no idea what she wanted. Then there was a surprise piece of birthday cake for me, at the time I only realized that she was acting before that...hahaha thank you girls for the treat ^^

This is not related to birthday, but it actually fulfilled my wish to have a trip with my highschool girl gang. Air asia promotion tonight and i finally managed to book cheap tickets for bali trip! YAY! Hope we really can make it, i'm really looking forward to traveling with you girls. Not to mention my australia trip with the fun NTU gang, wah sounds like i'm so rich, two graduation trips next year hehe ^^

Miss yvonne said she doesn't mind to treat me ice cream or dinner i don't remember which one, but i'm meeting her tonight! I'm so happy getting to know lyy, yvonne and weishin last year, they brighten up my NTU study life. Thank you very much ^^

-The end-

looking forward to the k session with the cutie and the ice cream date with wai mun...heeeee :D

i had a bad dream today...it was so real...u are digging a hole...tempting me and waiting for me to jump into it...at the end of the day it's up to my choice...do u have any idea how cruel it is....for me

yes u!! why u want to put me into such situation??!!! I wish to...but i don't want to be a bad girl T_T

Why got ppl write this kind of funny song?

女：你控訴我　接吻接上癮
密密外遇　令你很痛恨
你呷醋呷上癮　膽敢去諷刺我　不愧是女人
男：平時和人　如何尋開心
　　捏著浴巾　去擁抱別人
苦苦的啞忍　離開妳
合：沒要緊

女：你作個證據　再對我教訓
男：和他搞公司　是你蝦我笨
女：我放棄奮鬥　你至安心
男：跟他幾點鐘　方有著快感
女：堂堂男人　別太過份
男：如何纏他　我當顧問
女：何必於一起　沒半點信任
男：三天不見了　談何被信任

＊女：睡就睡　男：妳作對
　女：你喝醉　男：請不必屈我喝醉
　女：梳化都給你割碎　男：全都因妳衰＊
＃女：睡就睡　男：妳說對
　女：你撤退　男：跟他好一對愛侶　我走開妳沒負累
　女：請你滾　滾出去
　男：妳愛滾　不配做人　爬出去
　合：鬼上身　趕不退
　男：我有信心　不怕行雷
　合：看心虛會是誰
　女：你去　　男：認罪
　合：然後看死你落淚\＃

　女：從未了解你　　　男：我偏太縱寵妳
　女：我也太縱你　　　男：妳當我已死
　女：別日夜在妒忌　　男：假得妳
　女：我也有吻過你　　男：是為著好奇
　合：天都知　你與我　誰人有理
　男：天天想妳　　　　女：才叫你妒忌
　男：彼此躲避　　　　女：自卑的你　日嘈夜嘈　調情亦無味
　男：終於嘲笑我　我愛妳不起

REPEAT＊＃

男：和人愛吧抱吧吻吧叫吧去吧舞吧　還是算吧
女：酸吧苦吧哭吧飲吧湯吧癲吧　別要醒吧
男：早已輸了不怕不怕不怕不怕
　　隨便對他笑我如何小家　
合：咒吧
女：你不化　男：憎妳　憎我　惹起對罵
女：講真　因你極小家
合：你使我羞家　羞家　真羞家

REPEAT＃

女：再見　男：不見
合：誰又有空再受罪
女：再見　男：分居

合：無謂吻傷我味蕾

nice song --> 我的回忆不是我的

傷心的總會任性
灰心的總會用氣力
將最好的過去 將最多的細碎
鎖到屬於你的眼睛

失戀的不夠耐性
失戀的不信是注定
於最黑的世界 於最光的剎那
感到屬於你的氣息

即使很多一起過的
想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見
但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認
回憶也許你的

當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我 總是太感性

失戀的都有惰性
失戀的都記住約定
當理想的世界 當理想的剎那
因愛 無分你的我的

即使很多一起過的
想起的通通你的
為著是浪漫的愛情
通通都可再見
但承諾可再聽
什麼可不變色

Oh baby
當晚與你記住蒲公英
今晚偏偏想起風的清勁
回憶不再受制於我 我承認
回憶也許你的

當晚與你記住流水聲
今晚站在大地自己傾聽
難道送別你 回頭總是虔誠
誰能怪我 總是太感性

emo days is approaching again...sometimes this kind of news hit it right to my heart...and i begin to pity myself...no i don't want to be like that...please

O.O

I don't like my life now...there is so much to worry...so much to think...
Wrong decisions have been made...there is no way to return...

张智霖 - 十指紧扣

The melody of this song keep playing in my mind these days, i like this guy~ :)

即使可以畅聚
最幸运的一对伴侣

沿途仍旧要牵手伴随
原来为了温馨之中带着了恐惧
若那对手放松了
会怕失去

紧紧拥抱以外
我用什么感到被爱
沿途陪着你手松下来
遗留十寸空间谁相信
你在乎我
若那缺陷拉阔
随时会分开

谁都知双手可紧扣
不依不舍的背后
这个信念有多温柔
从害怕会被拥有
直到力气不够
十只手指终於找得到对手
[十只手指就是绝望时扶手]

能开不开心都紧扣
辛不辛苦都接受
是一个成就
可惜我只想与一个人尾指一勾
也没有
[可惜我只得我一个人绕起双手]

Happening Friday

Two days before this Friday I got the invitation from my dear ping ping to her BBQ cum birthday party in jb, yes i was so excited, as we seem never celebrate birthday together anymore ever since i came here. As she is not so close with most of the ch ppl in singapore, no one is willing to go, ya maybe some of them are busy, but some of them are always that kind of ppl who always say "har...don't feel like going lerr" "who else going" "if xxx not going i also don't wish to go lerr"...no offense but i feel quite mood-spoiling everytime i hear this...

In the end i went with daniel. Hmm daniel...i almost cannot rmb how he looks like...we never talk in ch...i know him and he knows me but we never talk to each other, ya we have many this kind of "friends" in ch haha...but nvm at least got someone acc me to go to this dangerous city in msia =p we chit chatted like old friends, didn't have any awkward feeling at all...oh ya yuanyi said he is very very gentleman *raising both hands and legs to agree with her*. We always wonder why most of the guys around us can never have any connection to this phrase, yes u r right...we mean amcisa guys lol

Alright, in the BBQ party, DOCTORS everywhere. Only two of us are outsiders, but the thing is, daniel is LAWYER T_T Everyone is so good at speaking and socializing, I really feel shameful using my broken english to talk with them...Nothing special happened in the party...There was a girl from perak and sorry i cannot rmb her name, she is very friendly, we talked for a while... daniel know keanguan and his sis...and i know keanguan and weiping's parents...so luckily it's not so boring for us lol...it has been a long time since i see weiping's parents. I found that her dad looks much older...and then only i realized, i've been knowing weiping for almost 8 years...ya time flies, probably she will have the same feeling also if she happens to meet my parents...

BBQ party ended, they all going for 2nd round...my initial plan was to follow weiping, then stay overnight in her hse and come back singapore on the next day. However during the afternoon lunch with peijun's gang, i knew that they are going to sing k in jb at night! Yeah then i can go back together with them instead of taking mrt alone by myself in the second day...I thought it was a nice plan, but guess what? i join their k session at 11plus and the k session extended to 4am...crazy man...though it was very happy joining them XD

By the time i reached hall i was dying T_T...the sky was turning bright and when i went to bed, it was 647am in the morning...kill me!!!

十面埋伏

闻说你 时常 在下午 来这里 寄信件
逢礼拜 流连 艺术展 还是未间断
何以我 来回 巡逻遍 仍然和你擦肩
还仍然 在各自宇宙 错过了春天

只差一点点 即可以再会面
可惜 偏偏 刚刚 擦过
十面埋伏过 孤单感更赤裸
总差一点点 先可以 再会面
仿佛 应该 一早 见过
但直行直过
只差一个眼波 将彼此错过

迟两秒 搭上 地下铁 能与你碰上么
如提前 十步 入电梯 谁又被错过
和某某 从来 未预约 为何能见更多
全城来撞你 但最后 处处有险阻

只差一点点 即可以再会面
可惜 偏偏 刚刚 擦过
十面埋伏过 孤单感更赤裸
总差一点点 先可以 再会面
仿佛 应该 一早 见过
但直行直过 只等一个眼波

轨迹改变 角度交错 寂寞城市又再探戈
天空闪过 灿烂花火 和你不再为爱奔波
总差一点点 先可以 再会面
悔不当初 轻轻放过
现在惩罚我 分手分错了么
分开一千天 天天盼 再会面
只怕是你先找到我 但直行直过
天都帮你去躲 躲开不见我

My liTtL3 ANg3L

My tears dropped again...It was during yesterday night when I was chatting with you in msn. Can't remember how many times I've cried in front of you...For this time when I realized that you can only spend two days in Singapore, and I have no chance to say goodbye to you in airport, I feel really sad and I couldn't help but crying...I know you are important to me, but the thing is, this level of importance is totally out of my expectation...the feeling is so lost...and now my tears are rolling around my eyes again T_T Girl, I will miss you very very very very much!!!

Wong Bao Jing, you are an angel to me!

Friendship fOr3VeR

在一个睡不着的晚上，突发奇想，发现自己认识和比较熟的朋友们，姓氏几乎都不一样呢！

小学：江美叶，吴嘉真，叶勇隆

中学：苏欣颖，邹远仪，林芮萦，蔡韵仪，游薇萍，徐筱慧，李美仪，郑莹儿，蒙国伟，陈伟文，叶志伟，陈其霆，杨明伟，刘青颖，王政鸿

大学：黄宝晶，廖崇嘉，罗文祺，覃彩霞，林颖嫣，陈慧婷，雷佩雯，傅舒馨，方佩君，张慧亨，刘丽萍，林家华，刘思锦，，周志豪，吴继成，许文彬，甘德权，叶成哲，刘建伟，谢玮信，朱国汉，曾俊耀，萧宏昌

还有很多，一些我忘了名字，一些我忘了姓氏，懒得写了。。。

在写名字的时候，越写越犹豫，到底该不该写某些人的名字？好像以前很熟，却又好像很久没联络了，现在好像一点都不熟了。突然发现，中学和大学的朋友，尤其是大学生涯中，有太多太多过客，跟许多人都只拥有一年半载或更短暂的友情。或许是因为，自由多了，面对的事多了，注重的事情不同，时间分配上的不同，让许多人都只有擦肩而过的缘分。也不一定，因为有些很多年都没见的朋友，再见面还是不会生疏，这也许就是中学生涯中最值得骄傲的事吧！

惊然发现，性格上的契合，在友情字典中更是不容忽视。我竟然忘了写某些朋友，是性格上和我不一样，却和我相处了不少日子的朋友。心里隐隐的存在着一丝内疚感。有人说过，像我这种性格的人，只会对我喜欢的朋友很好很好，而我不喜欢的人通常会讨厌我，因为我是个喜怒哀乐都写在脸上的人。我不否认，但我也已经在学习，尽量不表现自己的不高兴，不随便给脸色别人看。所以我不再是欣颖口中的小辣椒了。

我只希望，我心底真正珍惜的朋友，友谊可以长存。

Had a great weekend with yingyan and weishin in penang, and also a wonderful time with yingyan in kl. I'm really blessed to have them as my friends. I love you both, muaks ^.^

tis is not bad

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情 还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气 也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进 何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

Sometimes I feel like I'm a coward. I have no guts to work on something that I really wish for, and end up missing the chance. As if an ostrich, the only thing I do is to bury my head on the ground @.@

Recently keep watching hk dramas..as my mum is loyal fans of astro 314 and 311 channels...and thanks to ykedwin blog too! These tvb dramas sometimes really nice and attracting, especially stories with professional occupations and rich ppl's businesses...and sometimes the theme songs are very nice too...some of the actors not only act well but also can sing well...such as 张智霖...i love both the stories and theme songs of 澳门街 and 西关大少...the lyrics are still vivid in my mind...

# 宁愿没拥抱共你可到老
任由你来去自如在我心底亦爱过
如若碰到 他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉 #

And out of nowhere, the melody of 律政新人王 theme song pop up in my mind...it sang by my favourite actor 林峰...whoa i could still remember the whole lyrics...no doubt it is really a nice song...

# 当这感觉未发生 不知道你光临
我大概还可继续散心
无奈我的心 不经意着了灯
为得不到的吸引
令我不纠缠亦不忍
当他手放在你身
才想到我是好友永没权利去伤感
忘记受过伤害 施舍最假的爱
也会令我肯相信这段感情避不开
忘记如何忍耐 再期待一夜之间醒过来
我和你便如恋人热爱 #

INs0mNi@

It's 3.30am now. I've lain on my little bed for more than one hour and my eyes are still wide opened here. I woke up at 12noon today, which considered early ; I didn't have any caffeine in stomach today; No nap today. Insomnia? How could it be possible??!!! =.=

Ang3ls & D3m0ns

I wonder if Ang3ls come after D3m0ns
as no one will realize the existence of angels
before demons shown up in the world
no matter what happens
and for whatever reason
let's be an angel
a happy angel
cheers

kai ma always say i'm the cure whenever my kai ye angry...they sent me to put off his fire everytime when he was throwing temper to ppl...i need my own cure too...can i have one? :(

How will it be
if i never been born to this world?

思念

有人问，思念是甜的，还是苦的？
有一首歌说，那感觉是痛的

# 想念是会呼吸的痛
它活在我身上所有角落
哼你爱的歌会痛
看你的信会痛 连沈默也痛

遗憾是会呼吸的痛
它流在血液中来回滚动
后悔不贴心会痛
恨不懂你会痛
想见不能见最痛 #

思念着别人的，心情无疑是复杂的
被思念着的，心情是怎样的呢？

...

Talking phone with friends who can chat anything with you is really fun indeed. The over 3 hours "cook porridge" session with miss chow made me so excited about all the topic that we've "discussed" or in short, gossipppp :p

Yet the greyish blue mood persists. It become even worse after all these sad stories in the book and all these heartbroken songs in the playlist.

Gimme a hug pleaaseeee...

刚刚 在收拾残局的时候
我想起了两年前
我亲爱的室友趁我不在房的时候照爆了镜子
之后的某一天
我忘了什么原因从房间出发走路到学校
穿上拖鞋时有感觉到一点点地不舒服
经过ADM的时候脚底不停的传来刺痛感
我还是继续走 走山坡走楼梯
在学校遇到很多很多人
我忘了为什么到最后我们会在SAC
大家都在研究我脚板上的伤口
朋友们围着我
买了指甲剪和针来救我
我记得很痛 我当时在挣扎
我说我不要把刺拔出来
我以为只要不理它 伤口久了就会愈合
我以为只是小小的刺
我从来没想过是玻璃

那时我很庆幸在我遇到困难的时候
有朋友在我身边照顾我
我很庆幸在我想放弃的时候
有人坚持要把刺挖出来
我很庆幸我拥有的幸运


刚刚 我只是想从书橱里拿一本书来解解闷
却没注意到在我移动玻璃的时候它们的底面是不相连的
接着就是很响亮的声音
太快了 快的我看不见任何东西
还好我的手还握着一部分的玻璃
就是那压在我脚板上的玻璃
爸爸以为我只是打翻了东西
在客厅喊了我一下
我以为他会来救我
等了五秒 十秒 十五秒
我意识到我还没办法自己移动
我才知道我应该喊救命

我没看见鲜红的血从我脚板上流出来
我也没感觉到一丝丝的疼痛感
只是玻璃的重量
在我脚板上留下了一点点的痕迹
移开了玻璃以后
脚底有刺刺的感觉
是一片闪闪发亮的玻璃碎
奇迹般的 脚趾也没被刺破
谢天谢地 我完全没有受伤
整个过程 可以说真的很神奇

我很庆幸在我摔破玻璃的时候
还有爸爸来救我
我很庆幸压在脚板上的玻璃
还有我的手撑着
我很庆幸玻璃摔在地上的时候
碎片不是向着我的方向飞来

今天的我
本来还在懊恼
为什么遇到恶劣的对待时
感觉一点都不强烈
我误以为
仅存的一点点感情耗尽了
连生气的力气都失去了

现在的我才恍然大悟
我该庆幸我还拥有的幸运

不能说的秘密

冷咖啡離開了杯墊
我忍住的情緒在很後面
拼命想挽回的從前
在我臉上依舊清晰可見

最美的不是下雨天
是曾與你躲過雨的屋檐 oh
回憶的畫面
在蕩著秋千 夢開始不甜

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
又何必去改變 你說過的誓言
你用你的指尖 指示我說再見
想象你在身邊 在完全失去之前

你說把愛漸漸 放下會走更遠
或許命運的簽 只讓我們遇見
只讓我們相戀 這一季的秋天
飄落後才發現 這幸福的碎片
要我怎麼撿

1st week of holiday

Been hanging out almost everyday during my last two weeks of IA. This makes me a little bit boring during the first few days of my return in kl, yet it did not last for long... XD

Friday. Out movie with my ntu seniors, choyha and keyseng in midvalley and the gardens. Wonder why we date keyseng? Not because we need more accompanion, also not because i need driver :p ... the main purpose is to concern about keyseng's break up, with the aim to dig gossip... ops choy ha why u so bad :o!! Alright, back to the topic! Poor keyseng feel very sad and cannot let go, hope he will be fine after some time la.. As choyha said, the girl is 晤定性, she will dump this guy again if she meet another more potential guy, so break up the earlier the better...add oil for u keyseng! Oh ya, my comment about terminator salvation --> sucks! time and money wasting! I swear I will never watch terminator in cinema anymore!

Saturday. Movie again with primary buddies in pavillion. As usual, my dear cousin ah loong become the driver of three pretty ladies hahaha. My very first time to pavillion, and why it sounds so outdated lol. The whole design of pavillion is so nice that I think it is one of the best among all the shopping malls in kl. And talk about my two primary best friends, all these years I never stop wondering why my 眼光 so good during primary school, as they are really damn pretty now. I can hardly find anything to tease them, this make me miss my ntu roomie so much hahahahaha...I'm so so so sorry lyy XD. As for the movie, we watched drag me to hell. Miss bee yip was the most excited person who wanted to watch horror movie, but unexpectedly she was the only one who scream like hell in the cinema, we couldn't help but laughing nonstop while watching the movie lol. This movie not very nice but disgusting enough! Every "wat dat" thing must go into the girl's mouth...yucks really feel like wanna vomit!

Sunday. My beloved ssy's birthday. Miss ssy is sooo busy celebrating her birthday with tons of friends, but she arranged a k session in pavillion red box plus for her highschool buddies. It was enjoy listening to kokwai's high difficulty songs, it was fun listening to carmen's wrong pitch voice, and it was really fun singing 麦兜 songs in k box...but too bad rueyying and chowchow not there with us. Miss stewardess always need to make early appointment and miss chow chow still far far away in uk...hope I can meet them very soon! Anyway, H@pP3 B!rThD@Y to my dear Sh!n Y!N, u know I love you haha! (:

Is it the time to give up?
hmm i think so...
find some distraction
keep it in the bottom of the heart
and move on

i like it

你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何
你是我心内的一首歌
心间开起花一朵
你是我生命的一首歌
想念汇成一条河
想念汇成一条河

好想问你 好想问你
对我到底有没有动心
对我到底有没有动心
沉默太久 沉默太久
只会让我不小心犯错
不小心犯错

惦在我心内的一首歌
不要只是个过客
在我生命留下一首歌
不论结局会如何

You don't know how I wish I could give you a hug
at the moment
take care...

抉择

站在分岔路上
要如何去选择对的路
有谁能确切的告诉我
若其中一条是平淡无奇的康庄大道
另外一条是充满色彩却崎岖不平的道路
你会选择什么？

有谁能立刻下定决心的作出决定
又有谁会犹豫不决地不知该如何抉择

为什么会有人选择平凡的无惊无险
为什么会有人选择披荆斩棘的冒险之旅
有人说
因为他不喜欢改变
因为她喜欢刺激

可是有没有人知道
或许是因为他曾有过生活上的历练
无法再承受多一丝丝的折磨
或许是因为她厌倦了平凡无奇
无法再忍受多一丝丝的郁闷

我在想
为什么在他们眼中就只有这样呢？
看似无穷无尽的前方
一定不只有这两条路可以走
难道没听说过　路是人走出来的吗？

把自己局限在狭窄的空间
看到的就真的只有眼前的选择
或许　当你换个角度来看待
你会发现
原来康庄大道也可以很好玩有趣
原来所谓的坎坷不平
是让你迈向不再懦弱的旅程

又或许　自己在不断尝试的过程中
如此幸运的
寻找到了一个属于自己的舞台

当然
如果可以不考虑后果
抉择根本不困难
但如果不理会世俗的眼光
抉择就不再是抉择
因为已经下定了决心
做出了选择
做出了决定

这世上　没有什么是万能的
也没有什么是不可能的
要经历过才会拥有勇气
要尝试过才会懂得
其中的意义

Do U g3t Wh@t I m3aN?!!

What if I said no?

Are u going to repeat and repeat until I say yes?

And u don't really believe me everytime I said I know

U just keep on asking and asking

I don't understand why u think so much

the ridiculous thing is

I don't understand why I think so much too

Am I afraid of something?

Yes probably

I scared I might lose what I have now if I keep going

But I don't want to stay at the original point

Go ahead?

Stay?

Go ahead?

Stay?

Do I really have choices?

Hmm...

Life is so complicated

dumpling festival?

it seems getting so much closer...step by step...yet it moves further away...unexpectedly...that's life~

ahh dumpling festival... and ssy's blog reminds me about the fun competition that we joined during the last year of highschool...it lighten up my mood when i'm getting a little bit emo over small matters...hmm she is such a sweet girl...i miss her :)

roomie, i can't get hall...*sob sob*
cannot stay together next sem...haiz so sad now :'(

IA presentation

3 more days 3 more day 3 more days

another nice song - Reality

Met you by surprise I didn't realize
That my life would change forever
Saw you standing there
I didn't know I cared
There was something special in the air

Dreams are my reality
The only kind of real fantasy
Illusions are a common thing
I try to live in dreams
It seems as it's meant to be
Dreams are my reality
A different kind of reality
I dream of loving in the night
And loving seems a night
Although it's only fantasy

If you do exist honey don't resist
Show me a new way of loving
Tell me that to do show me what to do
I feel something special about you

Dreams are my reality
A wondrous world where I like to be
Illusions are a common thing
I Try to live in dreams
Although it's only fantasy
Dreams are my reality
I like to dream of you close to me
I dream of loving the night
And loving you seem try
Perhaps that's my reality

a nice song

When you smile my life becomes a ray of light
sing me a lullaby to sleep at midnight
i'II be hypnotized when looked into your eyes
turn off the room light
let's spend the night

Take me to far away
away to your secret place
take my tears, my fears
take all my pain
for which I'll repay someday
with a kiss and say
can't believe that I'm in love
in love again

when the stars don't shine
and when the birds don't fly
and when the flowers cry
and when the rain runs dry
when the violet's red
and when the rose turn blue
baby I'll still be in love with you

Take me to far away
away to your secret place
take my tears, my fears
take all my pain
for which I'll repay someday
with a kiss and say
can't believe that I'm in love
in love again

IA report

Introduction:
Rushing IA report in my little room in hall 12 for the whole saturday @.@

Materials and Methods:
roomie knew that i will be alone
so she left me this

Limitations:
the weather is so hot
luckily i got this
but still hot =.=

Results:
how to do how to do???!!!

concentrating

emo-ing

don't panic slow slow think
play camera first

act cute ^.^

Discussion:
spot the difference??
The difference is with specs and with no specs lol
got one big pimple on my face T_T

as mentioned above, i have finished intro, materials and methods, results and discussion :)
so abstract, conclusion, references are to be done tmr!!!

失败的征兆
隐隐约约地浮现眼前
她遗失了勇气
无法 再去追寻

告诉自己
不可以 不可以再次逃避

却怕了 却慌了
转过头朝着相反方向
开始逃跑
流着眼泪
说服自己不再回头

终究
还是崩溃了

Trying hard to keep myself busy with songs, movies, dramas and all these funny entertainment shows from internet. But still, i feel lonely without my friends and family around. I began wondering, since when I've become so dependent on others. Yes i could still remember how my friends turn me into this. They hang out with me when they are free, get help from me when they need me, call when they miss me; they also laugh together with me when I'm happy, listen to me when I'm moody, treat me as their buddy and always keep me as company. All these have turned me into a different person, very different from what I was like. I become more sensible yet more vulnerable, less hiding in front of people who care about me yet it make me become easier to cry, but I couldn't deny that i like it this way. It seems meaningless to sing alone, it seems boring to watch dramas without roomie, it seems torturing that no one knows your secret and no one understands you, and it is not fun at all doing things all by oneself. That's why I appreciate having people entertaining me when I'm bored, having shoulders to cry on when I'm sad, having place to lie down when i'm tired, and I do not need to pretend when I'm unhappy. I want to say that I'm really lucky being me...Thank you so much for being my friend :)

当时间静悄悄的从人们身边溜走时
人们可曾意识到自己改变了多少
有的人从幼稚变得成熟
有的人从任性变得和蔼
有的人从无知变得果断
也有的人一成不变
更有的人
从娇嫩变得蛮横
从天真变得现实
从无邪变得世故

又有多少人能判断
这改变代表的是好 或是坏

朋友说
在成长过程中
适当的改变无可避免
但若是为了别人而改变自己的本性
不是做不到
是不想委屈自己
不想妥协
人总是会有私心
总是想要成为强势的一方
到最后如何获得胜利
就要看哪一方比较害怕失去吧

当岁月增长
人们的遭遇 环境的压力 经验的累积
曾经看过 听过 面对过的故事
或多或少 都直接间接的造成了影响
改变了人们的个性

在不公平的环境下生存的
懂得退一步是海阔天空
不去计较太多琐碎事
但在事事追求完美
事事坚持平等的人眼中
这是不容许存在的懦弱
有多少人能告诉我
这到底是谁对谁错

而在勾心斗角的战争中
往往需要一定的功力
才能置身事外
默默地做一个旁观者
很多时候
不管你有多不情愿
前方还是存在着许多无法预知的陷阱
埋藏在看似风平浪静的路上
这就是现实社会的残酷

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如果
闭上眼睛
向前踏一小步
再深深地吸一口气
默默的从十数到一的时侯
缓缓地睁开双眼
梦想就会实现
那该有多好

happie weekend!

Although the cantonese ah ma blogged earlier than me, i still want to post in my blog XD

They are my lovely highschool friends ^_^

Cantonese ah ma's bf in red shirt


CraZy stewardess ah ma and me

"They made my day with nonstop jokes and laughter"
:)
Quoted from cantonese ah ma's blog